And yes I get what you’re saying and maybe that’s in our nature to do that. I’m not saying that’s not what I am doing.
And if you were to run comparisons to the projections of the Cold War era nuclear holocaust I would not deny them whatsoever.
I do think this point has merit and I kind of reflect upon it when I think about these things.
Also, despite as much as thinking people of logic and reason would like to rely upon it. Even science itself is an indeterminate thing. We constantly make new discoveries and projection which eclipse those that have come before. And the future is such a variable, intangible thing.
Same time though, there are so many massive changes happening. With the weather, with the atmosphere, with ecology far far more determined to begin happening very soon.
I personally see this as a constant, as something inescapable to the whims of human development or reform. It is beyond us, even through our highest expectations and ability.
At the same time though I see this as a very beautiful and necessary thing. In a fucked up kind of way. I mean, I could definitely be wrong. Wrong as shit and hopefully I am but I don’t feel that is so.
Like humanity itself is a little shitheaded child that has run amok for far too long and very foundation and walks around it are crumbling down.
I mean, I’m going to use the weather as an EXAMPLE
They’ve predicted an onslaught of potential, repetitive, cataclysmic storms for AWHILE now with an increase in climate heat index etc etc
And people basically just shrugged it off
I remember being young and living in Florida when these storms would come the kind of devastation they’d leave in their wake and how sometimes they wouldn’t
But recently, within the past five years or so they are so persistent. So frequent, so powerful.
It’s like: FWOOOM! FWOOOM! FWOOOM!
Over and over again in a kind of consistent repetition. Same goes for the wildfires, the behavior of the polar vortex in winter, sea water acidity, coastal erosion, not to mention the goddamned unbearable heat level, drought
And that all reflects on other things like the rising sea level, ancient viruses thawing out, mass extinctions.
Of course nature could ADAPT as could WE but at the rate these things are happening and the type of issues we’re dealing with now that we can’t even, or won’t overcome. I see it all coming to a head in certain ways.
Like, one begets another. That our global economy and society itself is going to suffer terribly as a culmination of all this and in order to effectively survive it, we are going to have to figure our shit out.
And to me, human behavior merits we will. Because we will be forced to. It’s just gonna be really, really painful.
I dunno. In a way I kind of personally have seen this coming and have prepared for it in my own way.
I’ve had to live hard, through dysfunction, without.
I learned the hard way that society is not something you can count on to protect you. That in a lot of ways it is counterproductive and deafening. That MOST people don’t really care or understand about the bigger, more indirect things that influence them in life. That everything gained can be lost so very easily. That connections and relationships only really last as long as they are conducive or beneficial.
I mean, generally speaking people are just fucking animals, even with the very best intent. And they’ll always react as such.
Family, friends, lovers, strangers, to a certain degree it’s all the same shit.
That a man’s future is about as concrete as his feet are firmly planted unto the earth, that we can all fall so very very easily.
If it isn’t repossession, or imprisonment, or injury, or dying and death.
Life and relative comfort are such easily lost and potentially unobtainable things.
So I kind of adapted my own lifestyle towards it. I don’t have kids because I couldn’t look them in the face and tell em the world they are living is is potentially dying and I’m leaving them that. I don’t buy a house so the fucking bank could reclaim it when I fall upon hard times. I never really pursued relationships because with what I do you are inherently hurting the person you are with.
I don’t even have a fuckin dog because I’d hurt them, I just would. You are Santa when you’re there and the fucking devil when you’re gone.
So sometimes I accrue a lot of money and others I don’t.
And this whole time I look around at the world I am living in like it’s a massive fucking dumpster fire which I wouldn’t wanna plant a flag atop of if I EVEN COULD and bare it on my own conscience.
So I just wander, like I’m already the last living man on a planet slowly falling to fucking pieces and laugh at it because that’s the best way I know how to deal with it.
Essentially speaking, to me. Even a merry family of five entrenched in a pristine house and a fuckin white picket fence are the same as a buncha desperate crackheads clinging on to their very last welfare check.
I don’t wanna feel responsible for that shit