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General Category => General Talk => Topic started by: otomon on May 06, 2008, 04:25:03 am
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You migth not even care but if you are bored or something..I hope you read it and you can make fun of me or help me or w/e,I just been sitting here for 1 hour not knowing wtf to do(its like 1 am here so I cant go outside) so I decided to post it here...because the internet is neutral.
Alot of shit has been happening in my life lately..but thats irelevant...to make a long story short.. I recently found out that everyone I know and cared about (my family and my friends) just used me for their own gain! I know I sound like some whiny-ass white kid but... I dont know it just hurts so much.. but what hurts me the most is that my so called "Best Friend" used my feelings so he could gain shit,he made me fall in love with his daugther.. but she never loved me! She was never mine..infact I found out she hated me and she just hung out with me cause her dad told her so.. her dad knew that aslong as she asked me for something she would get it...
I knew I had to do something to forget all the pain..yesterday I overdosed with some drugs(some maryj and then crystal meth) and It did help I was in a liminal state for a while..when I came to my senses my "friends" were shoving me into the trunk of a car that had a SubWoofer in it(they were planning to put full blast and they had planted some cameras to "film" my reaction)..at that moment this random message replayed in my head "Your life can be change forever in 1 minute if you make a mistake",my mother used to tell me that alot..I just always told her to fuck off...anyways I jumped out of the trunk before they could close the trunk and I just ran...and I kept running.. I think they tried to chase me...but I dont know,Atleast Im alive and safe now but...the pain from that girl is still in my chest!
I fucking loved her! Even after she betrayed me.. I want to protect her! I know she wont be happy just using people like she did to me all her life,the worse part is that is that I will never see her again cause we live in 2 different countries...
Sorry guys...Im sorry for being pathetic and posting here...Im sorry...
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keep your friends close to your heart man, keep those fucking friends close
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keep your friends close to your heart man, keep those fucking friends close
What friends? Im telling you I got no friends..are you telling me to just remember the good times I had with them before I realized how everyone was just using me? and forget all the bad stuff?
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one day you will meet a real friend
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Your best friend was a father and you were in love with his daughter?
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Do something productive until you are calmed down. A bad thing to do at this point is to ride it out with drugs and alcohol. Sure, you'll feel better, for a little bit. At least, until the sub woofer slams into your eardrums at a couple hundred decibels.
Once you think you're sane, don't bother thinking about the rest of them. They're assholes, so don't talk to them. Don't piss them off, though, otherwise you're going to feel shitty for life. But it's all really up to you.
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Once you think you're sane, don't bother thinking about the rest of them. They're assholes, so don't talk to them. Don't piss them off, though, otherwise you're going to feel shitty for life. But it's all really up to you.
I was planning on doing just that...going back there and just treat everyone like shit or something..you know somekind of revenge...but your saying I should just forget everything? Move on?
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Your best friend was a father and you were in love with his daughter?
Yeah I'm kind of confused by this too...
But I don't understand something though. How were you able to go out with a girl that lived in a different country?
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God I hope this is a joke.
Are you really the victim in all this?
For something like this to happen, you really need a "willing suspension of disbelief."
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can you elaborate more on the situation otomon.
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Yeah I'm kind of confused by this too...
But I don't understand something though. How were you able to go out with a girl that lived in a different country?
Okay I guess I should explain more,the last 6 months I been living in Mexico it was only suposed to be a 4 month vacation(but it wasnt a vacation at all cause my uncle only wanted me to go so he could use me to work for him) but I stayed there longer,anyways in there I made alot of friends,one of them was this girls father,we became really close in the sense that he taugth me everything...I wont go into details but he taugth me stuff my father never did cause i dont got one lol ...anyways I started hanging out with him..and I would go to his house every nigth...and well eventually I became friends with his daugther too but..she only saw me as her dad`s friend... she would never look at me as a boyfriend..a lover ..a husband.. I was just her dad`s friend...
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Whats the age gap?
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You need to realize that in life most of your troubles and strife are really very minuscule.
Find new friends and look at yourself, it might be hard but try and decide for yourself if you act like a likable person and if the people around you are just shitty people or if you give them a reason to be shitty.
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Whats the age gap?
Lets give the actors names and ages...okay...
Otomon(ME) = 18
Teriyaki(Dad) = 33
Lorein(Daugther) = 15
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Luke...
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You need to realize that in life most of your troubles and strife are really very minuscule.
Find new friends and look at yourself, it might be hard but try and decide for yourself if you act like a likable person and if the people around you are just shitty people or if you give them a reason to be shitty.
But my question is..what do I do in the time before I make new friends? and what if those new friends turn out to be hypocrites too?
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we're here for you buddy. please remember that, okay?
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Yes, you ought to move on. What good is it to replace one master for another -- and be a slave to your own uncontrollable anger? Sure, this'll hurt the ego for the next few weeks. But that's better than seriously fucking yourself up for life. And once you're able to let go, you'll find that you can think far more clearly. Then you can better decide how to dig yourself out of that shithole. Because if you don't let go, you're really only giving in.
Revenge will do you as much good as a pint of tequila. The satisfaction is short-lived, and you'll just be more pissed in the end.
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I think everyone goes through some uber whiney phase somewhere down the line. Just keep in mind that life has its ups and downs. There's a lot of shit that goes on when we're kids and we just don't realize it. When we're older, it's a lot easier to comprehend. It's a lot easier to realize other things, like who our friends are, who cares about us, etc. You've had this happen before (at least something this traumatic) without knowing it.
Humans synthesize happiness, though. Stick with a decision, be definite, and you will be happy. Who's happier after a year? A person who loses both legs in an accident or a person who wins the lottery? In a year, the two will be at equal points of happiness. The person who had millions of dollars will eventually get off of the high of being rich (think about like how awesome it is to get a brand new computer/game/etc). The person who lost both legs will cheer up (this was for the best, I'm still alive, I appreciate life more). It was proven by some guy at Harvard -- I had the presentation a while back, but I've lost it now. Go figure.
You can, however, look at the the good things and be proactive. This is a GREAT inspirational video:
http://glumbert.com/media/lastadvice
It's a way to look at what we do to get what we want and living proof about everything. I know a lot of people will disagree and say "Just because you do everything right doesn't mean you will get what you want." Good things happen to good people, though. In time. Just gotta keep looking up. And in the end, the only way to be ok with you is to be ok with what you do -- that's the only thing you can control.
I highly advise backing away from your 33 year old friend. If he has 15 year old daughter, then he had her when he was 18... Doesn't seem like a responsible fellow. Be proactive in everything -- don't befriend and open up to jerks. If someone is in need, be friendly and helpful, and all the like. Of course, this is if you're happy doing that kind of thing. Be ok with yourself and then everything else falls into place. Moments like this will be a momentary down, and you'll be happy with the long-term result.
Best of luck. When you figure out how to overcome this, you'll know what it'll take from now on -- ultimately you are in control of your life. But seriously -- try using your gut -- if something feels wrong/weird, it probably is -- especially with this "older friend."
--Terin
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Dude she's 15, she isn't likely to know or feel anything close to what you do.
Move on
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Best of luck. When you figure out how to overcome this, you'll know what it'll take from now on -- ultimately you are in control of your life. But seriously -- try using your gut -- if something feels wrong/weird, it probably is -- especially with this "older friend."
--Terin
That was really helpful man,and it makes perfect sense..I will get over this and I will not ignore this guy just cause his daughter rejected me,I guess Im just heart broken..but maybe as long as Im alive I will find someone else to love.. I mean your saying he got his daugther when he was 18? Well Im 18 now and I will take my time and wont make the same mistake he did.. its one of the things he taugth me..
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You can't expect a teenage girl to even make a mediocre lover. They are scum. Just don't let it hit you too hard, there are plenty of non-teenage girls out there. Even then, if your friends would do that crap to you, it's time to make some new friends. It's never too late to start over. Don't give them the finger, but don't stay around them either. You don't need them.
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Let it out. Cry. Beat the crap out of a pillow. I was betrayed by my girlfriend and best friend at the same time, so I know how you feel. Playing a game, watching a movie, or trying to take your mind off it is not going to do a damn thing. It might work for a while but it's all going to come back to you at night, while you lay on your bed with nothing else to do or think about. You need to sit down, by yourself, and think about this. About how you were betrayed and whatnot. You need to realize and come to the decision in your mind that you were not the cause of this situation and that even though you met some people that were full of shit, not everyone is like that.
Once you've done that, you can start getting back on your feet. Take this time to try out some new hobbies, meet some new people, or other things you like to do. Every time you start to feel sad or angry about what happened, remind yourself of the decision you made earlier. That you were not to blame and people are just shitty. Keep countering your bad thoughts about what happened with something positive. For example, if a thought pops up in your mind about how much you liked the girl, think about what she did and if you knew she was like that, you wouldn't want anything to do with her. Slowly but surely, you will start to feel better and then pretty soon you won't give a fuck at all about what happened.
That's how I roll. Hope I was of some help.
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Why the hell were you doing meth?
Thats like, one of the shittiest drugs you could possibly do.
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BTW, for anyone who wanted to know it, this is "Synthesizing Happiness."
http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/view/id/97
Helped me realize some things in rough times. Very good things.
And totally dude. If you thought you liked her and was heartbroken at 18 -- wait until you meet someone who IS worth it! The experience will kick whatever feeling you ever had for this girl in the ass 10's of times over!
--Terin
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Thanks you guys...all of you.....I wish I could post some heart warming post about how grateful I am but I cant really think of anything..Im just really grateful...I tougth you were all just going to make fun of me...but you didnt..this was actually my last resource...so thanks...
PS:crystal meth is shitty..I was using it as an excuse to hide from reality,I wont do it anymore.. I am going to move on now.
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chin up mate
you'll get over it and all that
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A lot of you guys are acting really gay over this.
While in perspective a lot of otomon's troubles are superficial and minor in the big picture, he obviously feels bad enough and down to do all the shit he did. Is it smart? No. But there's no need to act like dicks.
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A lot of you guys are acting really gay over this.
While in perspective a lot of otomon's troubles are superficial and minor in the big picture, he obviously feels bad enough and down to do all the shit he did. Is it smart? No. But there's no need to act like dicks.
dude this is otomon the HENTAI LORD
otomon: anyways if watching a lil 4 year old hentai girl getting raped does not turn you on YOU MIGTH BE A QUEER!
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A lot of you guys are acting really gay over this.
While in perspective a lot of otomon's troubles are superficial and minor in the big picture, he obviously feels bad enough and down to do all the shit he did. Is it smart? No. But there's no need to act like dicks.
everyone was really quite civil, considering he is the self proclaimed hentai lord
i think the meth use and the near kidnapping in the op stopped a lot of joke posting
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You're not overreacting mate, it's normal to feel like shit after a break-up (and overdose on drugs wait what). If you didn't feel like this, something would be wrong with you! Just remember everyone else in your life except for that girl and that 33yr old twat is still there for you. Plus, you're in a fucking burrito country, your whole life back home is still there.
also stay the fuck away from meth
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What the fuck they tried to kidnap you? How did all your friends suddenly get involved in the father's scheme? Or were they all already befriended with the daughter/father?
Anyway go buy and play an MMORPG and make friends there. XD
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Go back home and forget about the life in mexico, hope all goes well. I'm sure you still got some real friends back a t home.
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God I hope this is a joke.
Are you really the victim in all this?
For something like this to happen, you really need a "willing suspension of disbelief."
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dude this is otomon the HENTAI LORD
otomon: anyways if watching a lil 4 year old hentai girl getting raped does not turn you on YOU MIGTH BE A QUEER!
I actually miss those days when being different was okay..now that I graduated from high school and I have to go out on the so called "real world" I cant be different anymore...cause if I do act different people treat you like your a freak or handicaped or some shit but aslong as you act exactly like everyone else you are "normal",society kinda suck ass...
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God I hope this is a joke.
Are you really the victim in all this?
For something like this to happen, you really need a "willing suspension of disbelief."
Yea. And I don't know how good that girl acted, but I think I'd notice it if a girl despises me and hangs around me only because my father wants it.
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Yea. And I don't know how good that girl acted, but I think I'd notice it if a girl despises me and hangs around me only because my father wants it.
Well dude! I was infatuated with that girl...even if everyone told me she was a slut and was just using me..I just ignored them! I wanted to beleive I could make her love me....
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Ah. I guess if you're like that you can believe a lot of things. :/ (Makes me wonder who said she was a slut though? Those people are your friends then, right?)
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You're her dad's friend.
You're her dad's friend.
You're her dad's friend.
Dude that's kind of creepy.
Edit: You OD'd on Meth? Are you made of money?
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Ah. I guess if you're like that you can believe a lot of things. :/ (Makes me wonder who said she was a slut though? Those people are your friends then, right?)
Actually everyone told me she was talking shit about me behind my back..my sister..my co-workers..my friends but I didnt want to beleive it! She was so nice when she was with me.. I wanted to beleive it was all a lies
You OD'd on Meth? Are you made of money?
Actually I had to borrow some money...now I have to pay those people...but thats a different story.
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I actually miss those days when being different was okay..now that I graduated from high school and I have to go out on the so called "real world" I cant be different anymore...cause if I do act different people treat you like your a freak or handicaped or some shit but aslong as you act exactly like everyone else you are "normal",society kinda suck ass...
wow you are a great troll man
btw whoever took this seriously learn to recognise these kinds of people
What the fuck they tried to kidnap you? How did all your friends suddenly get involved in the father's scheme? Or were they all already befriended with the daughter/father?
Anyway go buy and play an MMORPG and make friends there. XD
http://www.onrpg.com/boards/member-otomon.html
http://www.onrpg.com/boards/search.php?searchid=530779
sorry too late
http://www.onrpg.com/boards/57518.html jesus christ
Can someone tell me some of the games that have hot babes on them? I know.. Im a pervert ..but so what?
The ones I know so far:
Deicide Online
Lineage 2
Pristontale 1(atleast in the artwork they mages look hot)
Tantra Online
Fiesta
Flyff
Infinity Online
flyff...............
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Lets give the actors names and ages...okay...
Otomon(ME) = 18
Teriyaki(Dad) = 33
Lorein(Daugther) = 15
You told me she was 13-14 in MSN.
Also, no offense but, you are really fucking stupid for even considering trying meth.
Get well soon and stay away from druges and hmoo spapiens
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You told me she was 13-14 in MSN.
Also, no offense but, you are really fucking stupid for even considering trying meth.
Get well soon and stay away from druges and hmoo spapiens
She is 14 but she turning 15 in june so she is basicly 15....
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wow you are a great troll man
btw whoever took this seriously learn to recognise these kinds of people
http://www.onrpg.com/boards/member-otomon.html
http://www.onrpg.com/boards/search.php?searchid=530779
sorry too late
http://www.onrpg.com/boards/57518.html jesus christflyff...............
this doesnt prove anything???
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Guys, the dad's name is Teriyaki. If that doesn't signal to you this thread is over everyone go home I don't know what will.
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Guys, the dad's name is Teriyaki. If that doesn't signal to you this thread is over everyone go home I don't know what will.
I just call him Teriyki for the sake of calling him something..if you want his real name its Rafael Calderon
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find a girl your age and youll be abit happier
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this doesnt prove anything???
i.e this guy is probably a troll and should not be taken seriously at all
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i.e this guy is probably a troll and should not be taken seriously at all
hes a troll because he makes terrible posts??
i see no damning evidence that this is a troll
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He was kind of a troll when he first came, but people change. We all know how Elighja was, but he seemed to have turned it around (even though he hasn't posted much lately).
Oto just don't do meth anymore and when you get back to the US try to forget everything that happened there. If you dwell on it could lead to depression and all that nasty stuff. If it really messes you up, you might want to see a psychiatrist.
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hes a troll because he makes terrible posts??
i see no damning evidence that this is a troll
well he posts like this on other sites
either he's trolling us all or he's an attention whore
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or he's just really really stupid, which is what I think
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Lets give the actors names and ages...okay...
Otomon(ME) = 18
Teriyaki(Dad) = 33
Lorein(Daugther) = 15
my so called "Best Friend" used my feelings so he could gain shit
No he used our feelings because he wanted your 'feelings'. The dude was 33, you should have just made him pay for some love-candy.
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http://www.onrpg.com/boards/57518.html
in between masturbating over game characters and requesting ones that are nude and falling in love with a 14 year old when you are 18 i really cant say i feel much pity for you Ottomon.
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Troll or not troll, the best advice I can give to you when life steps on you with his fucking big and heavy foot, is to watch Monty Python on YouTube and have a good time laughing your ass out.ñ
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Just for the record I was a total troll in onrpg and Im not saying that I stoped being a troll but I sincerely needed advice last night so thats why I posted here...If you all want me to go back to my normal trolling self I will...
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Wait until PubAccess is back up so I can use the otomon sig again.
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keep your friends close to your heart man, keep those fucking friends close
Greatest advice ever.