I don't even know what to say to some of you people. Some of you are just really cold hearted. I will remember this if someone close to you or a loved one passes away. I will remember this and quote your stupid words from your posts and send it in a pm to you. Just so you would understand how your retarded posts make me feel. In a way I guess this thread was made so that I would tell ppl i would be gone for a while but also everything was in such a shock coz i think i posted this the day I found out. Since I was in such a shock I didn't know what to do. Try being in my position, try understanding the way I feel. Its worse than dieing, and when people say stupid things dieing does cross your mind. You feel like you lost it all and you ask yourself, why am i still living? so you search for an answer. I wish some of you cold hearted people only knew half of what I felt. I would gladly give it to you just so you understand. But I cant ramble on about this forever but is not going to change anything. Even though some of your condolences didn't mean anything to you it still meant something to me. Thank you!!!