Well, the whole girlfriend thing... I cannot see it getting any better. We can't even communicate effectively. It's only been 3 months and we have very little to talk about. She puts me down. To the point where it actually hurts me, and she doesn't care and makes no effort to apologize. I have always been there for her. I have always tried to take care of her, and give her the best, and she shuts me out and pushes me away. About a month ago, we had a pregnancy scare and that Monday (we did it on a Saturday) I made all the calls, got her the emergency contraceptive, and took it to her even though it was quite inconvenient because she lives an hour away because I knew neither one of us could handle a child at that point, even though she would have done nothing about the situation. And I knew from research beforehand that the odds were not against us, but I did it anyway to help her.
I don't even really want to talk to her anymore because I cannot speak my mind without her trying to feel stupid, she has to have the last word on everything and everything revolves around her. Everything goes wrong with her and it will never get better, according to her, no matter what I try to tell her. It's very frustrating and disheartening. So I've decided it's just not worth the stress or the pain I'm going through. It may sound selfish but I don't think I deserve to be put through all this as well as I treat her. And she is probably going to realize once I'm gone how lucky she had it and it was her loss. I'll miss what good times we did have, and it's gonna be really hard because though it was my third girlfriend, it was my first actual serious relationship and my longest.
And I know life is full of this kind of thing, and it may get worse, but it's not always going to be this bad. Relationships shouldn't be so tumultuous. But maybe this will get rid of some of my stress.
(We kinda got off topic, lol)