It just feels so...sudden. I mean he was pretty ok from the last time we heard of him. I mean, I don't even know what to say.
I never spoke to him, but his posts were pretty awesome. I loved his stories, and I loved reading him argue. I never really exchanged a word with him (besides one time I think I said something stupid and he corrected me). I always admired him as a person, and he's honestly the kind of guy I'd aim to be. Lively, intelligent, charismatic, funny. I mean, its weird that I can even react to this in this way, but just reading srendi's post just left me confused.
It just seems so surreal. It doesn't feel right at all. I know you guys are probably like "who the fuck r u whoa" but even though it is weird, it sort of put me in a bad mood yesterday when I found out. And I couldn't stop thinking about it. It's just not fair.
I mean, we got through this whole thread and it honestly kept going like "Cancer's back, but steel defeats it!". I honestly never thought he'd end up losing to it. It just seemed like that cool, exuberant guy from the internet would be able to best it. And like, this thread sort of brought more up. Like he had a future planned out. He wanted to go to law school after kicking cancer's ass.
And god, I just feel pretty horrid for his mom too. I mean, her husband died of cancer, and the whole time it affected her throughout steel's sickness. I mean, for him to end up losing to this must be fucking devastating. I can't even imagine the pain she feels right now.
I know this post isn't very helpful. And everyone's trying to remember the good stuff and whatnot, but I just can't really get over it for some reason. It's bothering me. It's not right. I know this is how the world works...I've known it forever. People get what they get, whether they deserve it or not. But even now, it just doesn't make sense. I guess it never really does.
Well, my heartfelt feelings go out to everyone who reads this thread. I only wish I could have actually gotten to know him really, because he sounds like he was a great role model. To me he was one of the reasons I kept coming back all these years.
Welp. Got nothing else to say for now.