(Disclaimer - although my religion is involved you can still get results without it. Just please read it all)
Okay, so recently I had one of those experiences that changed my life and I'm sharing it with you guys because if it helped me so much that it may in fact help somebody else. Whether this is the right place or not isn't really the issue, imo, just as long as you are able to access it. So if you want to move it, feel free, all I want is to get it out there. With that said, here's my story:
Not too long ago I was doing drugs everyday, which may not be a bad thing to some people, but it really was affecting my life. I was waking up in the morning and as stereotypical as it sounds, I felt a void inside of me. I just felt empty and the only way I could feel alive (or the easiest way) was just to smoke pot. It got to the point to where it really was affecting my lifestyle. I was spending money on drugs, which is an expensive habit when you're broke and in college, and I wasn't studying as much, basically I was just unmotivated to do anything. Partly because of drugs, partly because of depression. Now I hate to bring religion to this, but it's kind of a factor. I believed in God and everything, but I hadn't been praying at all. I'd been trying to solve all my problems and because nobody is perfect, I kept fucking up and fucking up and fucking up. So one night I'm feeling like shit and I'm talking to one of my friends who tells me I need God back in my life and I should pray for something simple like to experience Him or to just find the truth. So I did that a couple times, didn't really pay too much attention to it and was still smoking everyday and feeling like shit. One Sunday morning I called my grandma because talking to my family helps me out when I'm feeling down and my aunt had picked up the phone. I hadn't talked to her in like months. And I tell her how I feel like I'm just floating along in life and I'm really unsure about the future and stuff and she tells me about these anti-depressants she's taking. I say, sure I'll give it a shot, everything I had been trying wasn't working. I get them and I start taking them. On the first day, I just had so much clarity I was able to figure out why I was depressed. I was in a delusion that I couldn't be happy without a person in my life for the most part and it was bothering the hell out of me, if not consciously at a subconscious level. I figured out that I could live without them and that I could be at peace. And although it may be common sense to some people, I just want to point out that when you're stuck in a mindset it's pretty much impossible to see outside of that. Now I only took the antidepressants for 5 days because I saw I didn't need them. I got out of them what I needed and I didn't want to deal with withdrawal symptoms and I sure as hell didn't like the way it affected my appetite. I smoke cigarettes (Going to quit soon, as soon as I have enough money for the patch) and they affect my appetite as it is.
Now the main thing I want to mention is this movie I saw. Yes, I was able to get out of my depression, but watching this movie helps me stay out of it. Using what I learned from it, I feel more in control and happy with my life. The movie I'm talking about is The Secret.
http://www.thesecret.tv. Now when I was first watching it, I was a bit skeptical and thought it was a corny joke. But the more I watched I just saw how it all works. It's basically a movie on positive thinking and how your mind is more powerful than you give credit to it. People who take hallucinagens will know what I'm talking about. But anyway, what I'm trying to share with you is not a joke. It sounds corny and unrealistic, but honestly that's only because of your mind. If you think something is bogus or bullshit, then in your mind, it is. If you start believing in something, you would be surprised at what you can actually accomplish. And that's what that movie is about. Honestly, after watching that I've noticed a few things. The first is I'm actually enjoying life. I'm not getting caught up in things that are bothering me, I'm enjoying the things that aren't bothering me. And I'll share with you another simple little experience. One day I checked my bank account and I had 78 cents in it. I kept thinking that I'm gonna have money in my bank account, I know it. It didn't come immediately, I had actually checked it for a little while everyday to hear the same recording telling me I was broke. One day I checked it I had 40 bucks in it! I know it sounds like some stereotypical ad advertising bullshit results, but I'm telling you it's not. I'm not gaining anything out of this. If you don't want to watch the movie, look up the law of attraction -
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Law_of_Attraction and it pretty much says what it is. I just want to give you guys some information that will actually help you in your life, help you in a lot of ways. I feel that this is far more important than any ridiculous news story because this affects your actual life. I just want to let you know again that I honestly just want to share this with you because it actually works. It's not bullshit. And that I'm sharing it with you because I didn't want to keep that for myself. If it has the potential to better the lives of people, why not start with sharing it with a community, our community. I know that everyone is different and what works for some may not work for others, but I just encourage you to try this out and share any experiences you have when you do. Thanks and I hope you enjoyed the read.
-tekk
