http://krebsonsecurity.com/2014/04/heartbleed-bug-exposes-passwords-web-site-encryption-keys/

http://lifehacker.com/what-the-heartbleed-security-bug-means-for-you-1560801201

Check if any particular site is CURRENTLY exposed:
http://filippo.io/Heartbleed/

Hey everybody, if you reuse passwords at all change them. Except at places that are still exposed to this issue. That wont help you. You are basically at the site's mercy until they update their openSSL.

I think that might only be topics.

Sorry. I almost browse the web entrely by RSS feeds now with few exceptions. I find that I check sites without RSS a lot less often. Maybe that could be something to implement? An RSS feed for new posts?

My dad is a porn addict and downloads porn in huge batches on P2P networks and we were flaged and being watched for some stupid shit he made up on an internet chat (according to him it was made up). In anycase, turns out some of the stuff he downloaded was child porn. He deletes it however when he finds it in his batches (according to him) and the FBI found nothing illegal on his laptop. So they let him go (thus far).

It was pretty terrifying being raided. I answered the door. Thought someone was locked out when I heard a loud angry knock on the door, I went up opened it and they yelled that they were the FBI, they told me to come out and they patted me down and then interviewed us one by one. I initially thought it was because of my brother and drugs or something.

All I know is that I totally break down and admit everything possibly illegal that I've ever done when I'm interviewed by FBI during a raid. (except one thing involving weed and not actually buying it but considering it) Luckily they had no interest in anything that I admitted.

My house was raided by the FBI on Friday.

Happiness is subjective and also more of a barometer than a thermostat. It only matters when things get better or worse, not if they are currently good or bad in relative terms to other people. You live a shitty life and things get better you feel good. You live a awesome life and things suddenly take a turn for the worst you feel like shit.

My life has largely stayed stagnant. And that is how I feel. It hasn't really been an uncomfortable life, but its been very boring and unfulfilling one. I've found that the only reason I work is to escape where I live and possibly to find a girlfriend. I know girls don't want to date a broke loser. Of course, I hate money as a motivation so I have to focus on the possibility of living a real life that money would afford me rather than just getting rich. I feel like I've been in stasis ever since I graduated. It turns out that I pretty much can't get healthcare either at all and this is effecting my life in a few ways. Namely I just haven't been able to afford to see if I'm autistic and whether I'd qualify for any assistance based on this STILL. I'm tempted to just say fuck it and set up an out of pocket appointment and then really push for it if I get diagnosed. The longer I wait the worse off I'm going to get.
 
Romantically, I've been empty, miserable, and deprived basically all my life. Largely because as a kid all the way up to college I largely thought romance wasn't for me. I had the idea that I just wanted sex but was too afraid of the repercussions of attempting to get it. Never tried to get either. Untill now. I lost my virginity like a half a year ago. (I'm 25) but I found the experience wanting. It was pleasant, but I realised afterward that I actually wanted intimacy like a normal human being (lol). Not just sex. (of course I want that too) But I'm one thing that most people find romantically off putting: I'm polyamorous. I don't like the concept of monogamy at all. I'm not bothered by other dudes being in a relationship with me (assuming there is a girl of course) even though I'm straight. I'm not not interested in sexual exclusivity in the slightest. Anyway, that emptiness will continue untill I get the fuck out of here and stop being so poor.

Whats crazy is that I think back and realise there were attractive ladies that flirted with me in the past and I ignored them because I thought they were fucking with me.
 
I worry that I'll never escape and that I'm going to die never having had anything like what some of you here have at least experienced once, even if it ended badly. This idea terrifies me.
 
I think I said before that I'd love to live in Seattle or Denver. I feel like culturally I'd fit well in those places and be happy. :/
 
Financially at the moment:
My sales on Ebay have not improved lately, however, people aren't buying anything it seems like right now. Even my mom's internet business is starting to dip drastically in sales and I guess that issue is spilling into my own. I've been reading that in general small internet businesses have been suffering for some reason. A bit discouraging and makes me wonder if I should really buy new stock for my shop... but I'm not sure what else to do. So I'm just going to keep goingAnd keep trying.

I wish you guys all the best with your own troubles, it looks like a lot of you are experiencing mostly hardship. Sometimes I want to reach out and ask if people can help me on the internet get out of here but I fear I'd be a worthless leech and obviously you guys are all having problems of your own.

Hello everyone. I posted in the intro forum and I did a long winded rant on what I've been up to and Pilson said it made him wonder what was going on with guys who left or went on their own long hiatus for whatever reason. Really, hearing about your guy's lives in general sounds interesting to me. I want to hear about you!

I already ranted myself out a bit but I would like to see any personal stories or rants about your life and whats going on. I'm not talking about 'in the moment' posts that you'd see in what's on your mind or the typical response to "how's it going?" being "yeah I'm ok." I want to see some long posts. Its ok if you don't want to share or can't really come up with anything substantial. I just want to establish that this is more of a topic where you'd go into depth on what is really going on with your life and what you'd like to share.

Emotionally, socially, politically, financially, romantically, anything.

How are you're relationships in general? What goals do you have right now (if any, perhaps talking about not having any even)? What are your stuggles and victories? Recent or perhaps far in the past. If you've mentioned something on this forum before, feel free to repeat yourself, if only going more in depth.

Anyway, I hope to read some interesting stuff about my salt peeps. And I hope it feels good to get stuff off of your chests. You don't have to be in a miserable state to share either. Feel free to talk about more positive shit if you can.

That's kinda positive to hear, despite all the negative energy u got. looks like you're "sticking your neck out" and making it out on your own/doing your own action plan, which is good. you might not like the emotional turmoil/ u dislike yourself for now and probably afterwards for what you did to other people but you definitely have the right approach now, with trying to DEAL with your emotional turmoil rather than LIVE with it... regardless, i don't think you have much leeaway for doubt now so keep on focusing on your goal instead.
 
sounds like you don't like what some of your and others' opinions / u r defensive about it but have realized that you can't really stay in an echo chamber/need a check if you got your thoughts ok etc, which is the right approach. though i wouldn't go as far as say that we are correct either instead by default but yeah, better maximize the amount of perspectives to topics/issues. you won't die of over-exposure... 
 

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What did I miss? Have any more game jams? Olbies still around? Anyone leave? Thank you for reading my block of text.

Well, SW was down for several weeks (due to certain SHITMIN... smiles smugly)... we also had a successful SW Game Jam which though got kinda busted due to downtime but i doubt there had been more participants due to it...
 
idk i guess like there's lot less post frequency post-downtime now but i'm not entirely sure why is that. for me it's just that i've been hella busy with school and i found that avoiding internet in general/putting it to bare minimum is the best for me, though i still have to work on it. trying to find a replacement activity or more productive activity in general in place for the "passive time" i spend on at certain times in my day. 

 
Exactly. I normally don't post in forums often really but there is another one I've been going to that a lot of outsiders might call an echo chamber (though insiders would call it more of a support group) on a very specific and personal topic and I'm not ever going to be at liberty to discuss openly here unfortunately. =P It is something I think about a lot though and I found myself posting topics a lot there which may be a learned behavior that I might transfer to this place. Mostly on stuff outside of the 'main' topic of said forum because I knew I'd get a bunch of differing opinnions. I actually had an arguement with a person who felt very strongly that taking any psychoactive drugs for any reason was bad and that suffering is part of life and you should just endure it naturally and then proceded to link to a 'holistic and spiritual' type of site. Suffice to say I think I reigned myself in decently well and avoided calling him a fucking idiot. (also, he was an admin, so obviously there was only so far I could have gone. I don't think he'd go so far as to ban me for disagreeing with him)

In any case this is why I feel like I'm going to more confidently post topics here now.

But yeah, its not only maximizing my perspectives and changing my mind though (though that is a supremely important aspect). Its also testing my beleifs against others to the degree that if my arguements hold up in a place where EVERYONE IS AGAINST ME I feel far more vindicated and correct that if I joined a communitty and everyone just circle jerks one another, including me.
 
As for the decreasing post frequency here in salt land I hate to say it but a contributing factor to my own hiatus was the long downtime. I usually visited this place out of habit and after a while of not being able to the habit died. This might be a similar reason why many others have been posting less.
 

Glad to hear about your resolve last time we talked you seemed down and stuck in a rut. Also glad to see you back.

Yeah I'm still technically stuck in a rut. Its just now I'm attempting vigourously to dig myself out of it. Namely because I feel the prime of my life is slipping away into a dull grey blob. Most people complain that the experiences they have gone through and the conflicts and hardship they feel has made their life painful. My problem is that I have little to no experiences to even draw on at all. And it drives me nuts now (maybe the grass is always greener?). The way I'm living now is terribly boring. Heck most of my life has been very boring. I'm never put myself out there in general and its lead me to be in general fairly inexperienced in just everything, espeically social stuff. As a kid and a high school I actively pushed the opposite sex away from me because of crippling doubt about me personality and appearance. I now sort of realise that there were quite a few girls that were actually smitten with me and I acted like a jerk to them in order to avoid being with them for fear that they were just fucking with me and I had absolutely no interest in being socially or emotionally vulnerable at the time. (fear of rejection and all of that) Heck, now I'm eager just to have the opportunity to be rejected. I litterally never see people outside my house now-a-days because I have not been able to afford to even spend the gas money to leave. This might change soon however. Even if I'm bound to leave asap I'd like to have some sort of social life here now if possible even if I'd be leaving them eventually. Can't be healthy being isolated for as long as I have, I need to break away from routine.
 

I like reading stories like this. Makes you think about what happened to other people from the forums.

Yeah same here. Glad to hear my post was interesting. I'd like to here some personal stories from you guys actually. I'll make a topic after this if I can think of a good way to write the opening post.
 
 
 
 
Also I wish my spell check wasn't borked on this site. I'm just going to post it though I'm pretty sure its good enough (I might ninja edit it though)

Hey guys. I've been gone for a bit you might have noticed (or not). Its funny to think, despite being here for soooo long I'm not sure if I ever actually made an introduction when I first signed up. Or at least its been long enough that I don't remember.

I took a vacation from salt land for a bit. Mostly due to Ebay work. I've got a new determined attitude about money. Philosophically, I've never had much motivation for money. I've always hated money. I've just wanted to have the bare basics, shelter, food, social life, and sex/romantic life. I have always had the former 2. But the latter things has been all but non-present for me especially for the past 2 years and its been eating at my sanity. This is largely because of where I live and a lack of motivation and generally being a fairly depressive person. And hating money motivated work. I still do, but now, I've forced myself to change perspective. I have to work within the system. I have to be aggressive, possibly even ruthless. Because that is what capitalism demands. And I've been miserable because I've been too passive and hippy-like. I've avoided such for fear of what I'd become, and now, perhaps its selfish, but I don't care anymore. I just don't want to live like this anymore. I NEED escape. And if I have to slit some throats and stab some backs to do it (financially, and probably less extremely than that imagery implies) then so be it. I don't see money as a high score, I see it as a means of escape.

I've been a sleazy salesman as of late. I'm misleading people at times. I realize I'm actually good at it... despite my usual social failings. I've been getting better about that though. I've pushed the idea that the person I'm tricking and manipulating? They are better off than me, they can take the hit. They are better off, because I'm living a grey meaningless life living with my parents and they have their own middle class life where they can buy the stupid meanness collectable shit I'm selling. And I no longer feel guilt for taking from them as much as I can.

I still hate doing this. I'd rather not. I feel... like I'm not myself and I feel little meaning in getting money in of itself. But the few jobs I've taken in more menial areas ("noble" worker/labor jobs) made me actively hate life and I'm not smart, motivated, or talented enough to actually produce anything that will make me money to live on.

I have not played a video game in about a month and a half (very very bizarre behavior from me). I have not talked to online friends much in that time period either. Even so, I often have to take breaks from work a lot. Listing items is painfully boring. I just have to keep reminding myself of what they represent to me and not think too much about how fucking stupid the shit I'm selling is.

I'm still not even making much money. I've only cleared about a hundred bucks because of a lack of valuable stock to sell and a few missteps for the past 2 weeks. But I've fairly confident in my abilities now and there is going to be a good opportunity to get some more stock in a month or so in the form of a multi-state garage sale event. I'm going to low ball the fuck out of people. I once bought a shelf full of near pristine books on stupid topics such as 'God is no laughing matter' and 'Love Lust and faking it' and a bunch of self help bullshit, and I bought them for dirt cheap. They haven't sold well and they take up a lot of room, but I made double my money after a half a week. I put on a chipper veneer when I communicate with my customers and basically kiss their feet as I sell them garbage they don't need. I don't hate or dislike my customers or anything but I definitely don't like them as much as I feel like I have to pretend to. I don't like putting on a false face.
 
My ultimate goal is to move to a city far away from my family. Like Denver or Seattle. I'd prefer to have my own private place. A tiny dinky apartment maybe, no car. I've never cared about wide open spaces. I hate living in the country. Only access to lots of people is what I care about. And stimulation, I'm restless.

Anyway, that has been what I've been doing. Sorry for not saying farewell when I left. I wasn't planning on being gone in the first place Just sort of happened.

Its not entirely true though that this has been all I've been doing with my time though. I've been going to various places and writing text book length responses on various topics like politics and science to keep from going insane with boredom in places like youtube, reddit, and facebook. And I've also taken to online RPing, not using any systems, just drama and sex shit, its bizarre that this is what I find myself compelled write, largely erotica. Maybe its my lack of anything erotic or romantic in my normal life these days. Its definitely something I never thought I'd do though. I always thought that shit was stupid untill I gave it a try. And no, I don't write well enough to make money off of it. Everyone and their parents wants to write these days. Its a skill with little scarcity due to the internet and most people posting their written work for free and unless you have a scarce skill (no matter how meaningless it is, like manipulating people and numbers for your own gain) capitalism wants nothing to do with it. Obviously.

I'm also not entirely sure if I'm going to post lots or anything now. It depends I guess. I'm going to try and visit this place more though. So you'll see me around probably. I'll probably be on IRC again too. I got on a few times. I don't know if I'll have much worth talking about. I might actually be a bit more aggressive and opinionated in my posts though... I actually hold a lot of views on things that you guys would probably vehemently disagree with as a community but I kept them to myself and I might continue to do so. My mind is still open though. You guys have changed my opinions in the past and I value that. I value that a lot, so much so that I need to be more willing to put myself out there on my more... extreme thoughts. IDK. But I feel like I might let them out now. I might post more topics now too. I basically NEVER did that before. Almost always replies.

What did I miss? Have any more game jams? Olbies still around? Anyone leave? Thank you for reading my block of text.

Cool!

I kept saying I don't normally like coop but lately I've been doing just that in Dark Souls again.

Once I upgrade my PC I'll be playing Call of Jingoism: Ghouls. Because I love virtually shooting people in the face.

Were the characters purposefully written to be deeply flawed people or were they outright cardboard cutouts of crappy people? They come off as 'anime deep' which is a phrase I just made up but sounds like it accurately describes it.

oh ok good I thought I was too late. Maybe I'll feel inspiration and motivation to finish the game that I got some work in for.

Yeah I agree.

I'm told murderin is the cornerstone of Videogame, so make murds possible and blammo, pure vidcon action

To be fair, I personally really like games that ARE ALL ABOUT MURDS

What about board games, card games, and pen and paper games? For some reason its harder to hate those and I'm not even as strongly into them.

The problem I have with my very incomplete 'game' is namely one of animation and art. I'm bad at both. I'm actually really bad at animation.
 
EDIT: You guys make pretty games.

Think of it this way, you got another 22 hours. (minus roughly 8 if you plan on sleeping).

Do you have an incomplete game?
 
Also, those screenshots are cool.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0SuGRgdJA_c
 
More important than my above post.