this is pretty dumb compared to ed's GP appointment (i hope everything goes okay, i am not sure what lymphoma is but i KNOW lymph nodes can get lost), but i have weird crap going on with my body all the time and everytime i look it up/ask people about it i only get weird looks. like that time i was getting numb balls and weird sensations of HOT LIQUID dripping down the back of my brain late at night - both of these are long gone, but they recurred for several months 2 years ago. also, i have some trouble breathing when i am lying down late at night, but only some nights, other nights it is fine. my breathing is kind of weird and i am very conscious of it all the time which i don't want to be. like worrying 'whoah, haven't taken a breath in a while' every few minutes kind of thing. i haven't really checked this out yet, i don't know what it could be but i think next month when i get home i'll get a check up with a doctor and mention it. also, the way i am going bald is irritating. i don't mean the actual baldness itself, although yeah that stinks but whatever i'll embrace a baldy hear when it gets to that time, but for about 2 years my head has been itchy alot, and that coincides with when my hair started falling out. how thin my hair is becoming matches with where my head itches. i looked it up and i got a bunch of stuff about psoriasis, which isn't what i've got got cos there's no physical signs, other than the hair being thinner, but my head is definitely itchy all the time and i think it's all connected but yeah i just get the brush off with it and there's nothing on the internet. hear the plight of the balding bachelor with an itchy head.
but yeah, i don't know. there are a couple of abberations in the way my body works that worry me sometimes but maybe everyone has things like this that they look up and nobody else has. i have alot of twitches and stuff, too. my body and brain are rickety old stinkers, but, heeeeey - that's life.