i found your gamesmasterjasper-related video in my old backup shit.

i love you.

that is all.

he won't see this, he actually left

I thought he was here recently like a couple months ago maybe. Maybe I just saw someone with his avatar or somethin but I'm pretty sure he posted here.

post it

I sometimes feel bad, like I personally had a part to play in psyburn's downfall.

I wish I knew the guy was so erratic in real life, I probably wouldn't have made endless fun of him for years on end with him telling me multiple times that he hates me.

(I feel even worse thinking that he had this relationship with like 1/2 of GW)

don't be mean to people just because they seem strange

I miss the guy. We used to talk a few years back but last time I tried to talk to him he wasn't all that talkative. Like, he actually felt discomfort just from the thought that he was having a conversation with me. I was sad.

I appreciate the care and such, just thought I'd take a minute to wrap things up.

I felt that I spent too much time talking to random people on the internet due to warped social circumstances and wasted high school, and wanted to make what I could out of my university. It was a gradual process, but the real kicker was when I realized that my super-awkward-stage persona was being taken advantage of for such an extensive period of time, and had reached an unacceptable point that shut me off without any effort. It's a two way thing of course, but being thrown "you killed steel" and whatever ain't good.

Basically, I don't feel as comfortable conversing with random people online. Don't get me wrong, there are tons of decent people on the internet (IE fatty) and I hate to sound like some kid who just passed puberty and don't like power rangers anymore. I'm probably the same guy, just think a bit differently. Many of the "big arguments" I am still adamant about.

Tons of guys here who have thrown me a message or two over the past two years assume that I am/was a film student. I have never been a film student, nor are my parents overbearing. I asked for advice choosing a university/major when I was confused, was given bad advice and after a year of computer science BS I made the best of it - switched to photojournalism a couple of weeks after buying a DSLR, seeing a guest lecture and talking to the pulitzer prize winning chairman. Just recently switched mindsets as a photographer with film as a supplement as opposed to the other-way around.

More things:
I am not screwed with loans
bub_from_the_pit: My IM client said that you didn't have me added as a friend, and I figured that I was probably more of a nuisance than anything. Regardless, I want to buy a print off you some other time.
Bobberticus: Thanks for the love
Fatty: Sorry for being a dick, thanks alot much appreciated.

Yeah, long post. I write too many block paragraphs. This is just an internet forum or w/e but the least I can do is write some shit when people are speculating about stuff that can be cleared up in a couple of minutes.

you should prob. switch back to computer science if you don't want to end up waiting tables or working retail

you should prob. switch back to computer science if you don't want to end up waiting tables or working retail

You know, I spent a dozen or so minutes flabbergasted and unable to come up with a straight-forward response, but you should probably realize that life isn't that straight forward. I really don't know what to tell you. I have many peers with successful careers in the field and many that don't. If it doesn't work out, oh well. At least I'd have gotten something out of it, and more I can exploit if things go wrong. Sure, it's easy to say now but I'd rather work tables instead of spending five-years and thousands of hours doing something that has completely fucked with my mental health.


I believe that everything happens for a reason, and that positive results will come as long as you work hard. I've had shit go down for hopeless years on end only to receive pay-offs years later that make me go, "that would have never happened if not for [xyz]."


So yeah, I feel like throwing a curse word or two frankly.

hey chill. you don't need to explain your posts or defend yourself, no one's judging you. even if they were who cares

I think you should keep at it with film though psyburn you used to do some really awesome stuff especially that music vid with couchfiend