http://serendip.brynmawr.edu/bb/neuro/neuro05/web2/erickenbacher.html

I was recently diagnosed as hypomanic. But the kind I have I'm pretty sure I have always had and it has never gone away. I went to a dr. to get something to curb it because I've physically worn my body out several times and had done damage to it over time. Probably atleast five differnt times in the past couple years. This article talks about a very rare form of bipolar disorder that fits that description and my dr. alluded to that but I don't think he knew much about it or understood exactly how long it goes on, "infinite unless self-medicated".

I can't talk to most people and have them understand my method of thought or what I am conveying. Its not a lack of understanding language or word choice but they can't follow my speed and the patterns I'm often trying to relay. Big broad ideas that fit together, atleast in my head. I do this alot here sometimes if you can see it, I don't know.

I'm trying to understand what it is because its almost driven me to madness several times throughout my life and caused me to physically hold myself back because average "simple people" get irritated with me or don't not understand. I don't know if the term "like minds" fit. But it takes either an exceptionally odd or intelligent (or both) person to have the kind of interest into carrying on a conversation with me. I'm trying to figure out if medically doping myself up everyday is something I should think about doing or if I shouldn't live that way. If there are any studies that try to actually explain this, what it is.

I think my dad and brother might have it too but I'm not completely sure. I think my moms run of the mill bi-polar but either of the other two do alot of self-medicating but are both exceptionally intelligent.

I read somewhere else, from someone that has it and said. That it doesn't make you smarter than anyone else or necessarily born with any higher IQ. Its like being a homerun hitter. You just swing and miss so fast, and you keep on and keep on doing it that you just get good at whatever you're attempting to learn or do. That makes alot of sense.

I think that maybe steel had it too. His frustration and the speed at which he'd speak about things. Change his mind and then go on humorous tyrades, it makes a whole lotta sense to me.

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Fucking charlie sheen has it too AHAHAHAHA! Its why he acted like a complete jackass in those interviews, this is very very funny. Its why everyone kept saying he looked and sounded like a drug addict.

"Thanks to Charlie Sheen, I can declare "mission accomplished." Sheen's outrageous rants and antics galvanized national attention for weeks, prompting Dr. Drew Pinsky, celebrity medical journalist, to pronounce on the Today Show that Sheen was hypomanic. "Part of the challenge of hypomanic patients is they don't believe they have a problem," said Pinsky. "They believe you're the problem. So, it's very difficult to get them to cooperate."

As if to illustrate Pinsky's point, Sheen responded to Pinsky defiantly, "I'm not bipolar. I'm bi-winning," he said, and challenged the "so-called expert" to a fight: "I think me and Pinsky should jump in the ring and he should see how unstable these fists of flaming fury are. Yeah, dude. I'll show you how unstable I am. Bring it. Bring it, little man.""

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-roving-psychologist/201103/charlie-sheen-hypomanias-poster-boy


And the guy talks about a hypomaniacs "downfall" and by the way I read it before I thought it was like a crash over the course of several years or something that makes you get into some super depression. Its just an accumulation of their stupid shit if they let themselves get out of control.

For instance charlie sheen telling his producers to go fuck himself out of a job. lolololololololololol

Or bill clinton thinking he's a grade A aging pimp daddy and screwing himself over an office seceretary.


This is like a mental illness that isn't a mental illness but a form of natural irony.

thanks, that helps alot and I kind of felt that way. I think my main problem is I try to communicate with people too much and when they don't understand what I'm saying or communicate false or ethically wrong points back it just drives me even harder. When I finally realize I am accomplishing nothing then I get really really frustrated. When I watch terrible events on the news or watch people act terribly I get frustrated. I usually use humor or analogies to try to help out but it just cycles in my head. I think I'll keep it and take it when I feel "too much" for a particular thing I am doing or when I see myself "caring too much".

And yeah I felt the same as far as me not being the problem but I still feel like the problem because I consider my inability to "move mountains" failure and I'm responsible for failing.