uh speaking of soap matrix i think i finally acheived a goal of mine... not EGOLESS music but like this weird piece of music (one weird trick??) that feels like it has no authorship whatsoever, self-contained universe that is happier than ours like old nickelodeon bumpers... not to draw comparisons but i felt like maybe i ripped off [hexagon] from SAWII but I think it's just because both initially gave me this queasy feeling like something is amiss or foreboding about it but then on second/third listen it's like you hear it for the benign THING that it is... sorry to quote radiohead but there was nothing to fear, nothing to doubt, nothing 2 fear, no thing 2 doubt

started on foot rocker but had to close it after a minute because it was starting to shake the ice in my tall drink and give me a hideous, awful feeling in my chest. really love soap matrix, id like to try and learn it - parts of it on guitar. there be guitar discussion around here? ever? to search up on. like "orange friend" title, gives instant affection feel, i open song and am instantaneously transported to nightmare demon vortex... i am drawn to a demon realm... told to understand tha t if i listen to this song to the end i will die and lose my soul... must skip. quax lcl is my other favorite, it's got cute and catchy, but also sinistrally undercut w awesome morose empty schoolyard strings X sepia sky X life of pond & geese in same space fifty years before All the Children Are Dead.