those do seem like good threads baby. maybe I'll have SB breakthrough one of these days.
Well yeah, that’s true. I always liked the forum outline of this community much more than the other forms of social media. And I always wondered if maybe what this community was in it’s heyday could be kind of brought back in a different way if the forum had a more active caretaker and was geared towards general discussion and other media in general.I agree with a lot of that, I think saltw did a lot to shape me as a person and made me feel more like a sustainably cool outsider rather than just isolated and weird in all the wrong ways.
I got stuck in kind of a weird position in being here in the first place. I was never into rm2k or gamemaking whatsoever. I had a couple highschool friends who were and they would show me these discussions or running joke/gag topics that I got enamored with and just thought were hilarious.
I originally just signed up here so I could read more of it and laugh but the more I read the more engaged I got.
I found a level of intelligence and the kind of humor/discussions I was severely lacking in life. Most of the people I knew from highs school or just in life in general we’re far less thoughtful, far less articulate and I got that out of this place.
And I learned a lot, so much. I think that in a way this place saved me or at least gave me what I was sorely missing.
Ever since this place kind of died I’ve just been roaming around Facebook. Sometimes I’ll get caught in a debate or a discussion or just crack jokes to make myself laugh but yes it is very toxic or at least people on a media outlet like tinder aren’t the kind up for thoughtful discourse.
I even thought about offering to invest in turning this space around into something active if that’s even possible.
I’ve read through Reddit forums and things like that too but they just seem so massive and overwhelming.
What I liked about this forum is it’s a bit smaller of a community. If I’m reading through a topic on something I can read it all in it’s entirety. You can get to know the members on a more personal level so it’s a lot easier to get a feel for who someone is and who you’re talking to. A certain level of trust in that because these members build up a repertoire over time.
I think a personality like steel could probably do that and have the aspiration to do it. Figure out a new way to repackage the community and make it more active and less than a kind of outdated niche/fringe group.
Not that I find anything wrong with indie game development or things like Ragnars dump topic. I like that too and think it’s charming and has it’s own appeal in itself but at the same time this place is stagnant. I think it deserves better and IDK if it just had a more general kind of focus and that special bland of thoughtful discussion and articulate humor, with a little advertising it could see some new life and be better (for people like us at least) than places like Reddit or Twitter.
reddit isn't good at all, it's exactly the kind of place ppl are talking about when they say how bad social media is and how it poisons your brain. if ur not depressed or anxious, spend a morning going thru reddit and you will be. I use it to follow a few comedy subs which makes it a lot more palatable, but even that is a bit much and I should probably delete it.
I had a relationship with a girl who was really into astrophysics/quantum physics/astronomy/nature of reality and SPACE STUFF in general.
We’d have these long winded conversations about the nature of reality; things like the simulation theory, parallel realities, the Big Bang and advancements in science studying things like these ancient little particles that physicists collect in a bunker deep deep underground within a cave or mineshaft that were produced supposedly at the birth of our universe. They recently collected some of them in the arctic that had an opposing charge to the ones that you find floating throughout earth using some hypersensitive machine. Neutrinos are what they’re called I think…something like that. Anyways they figured out that the ones in the arctic had a negative charge as opposed to the positive ones that you’d find in the earth’s atmosphere. But these opposing charges don’t last long because they fundamentally mirror our own laws of physics so it’s been theorized that they’re coming from a parallel universe.
Which is some bullshit but it’s very very interesting to think about.
She used to scour Reddit reading articles about these things and various different scientific theories on the nature of reality then feed em to me to hear what I thought.
One of em was I think focused on time crystals and how all of the mass within the universe has a numerical value equal to the sum of all the mass in the universe, it’s really mathematically confusing and advanced but it’s these units or measurements of space that kind of prove the theory that you can fold space and move from one place to another based on the principle that all of this mass is built up of an equivalent of itself.
That’s a pretty shitty explanation of what I read but someone else might know exactly what I’m talking about.
I really like things like that off of Reddit or the whole Robinhood investor saga. That shit was incredibly interesting and very inspiring. Probably my favorite thing to happen within the past 5 years.
I don’t think most people really understand or appreciate what exactly happened with it and how powerful a thing like that is. Which really sucks for me because I was ranting about it and celebrating for a solid week between me and a handful of friends over social media and everyone else just thought I was some crazy nerd flipping shit over GameStop stock.
I think that’s a thing I really miss and find myself feeling bored and unchallenged or uninspired with.
I can’t find intelligent people to talk to. I just can’t. Even relatively intelligent people I’ve found can’t really keep up. Friends I grew up with who were gifted or had majors and were graduates in college just seem to be getting “old” I guess? Mentally? Just slower and less inspired, creative, thoughtful, intelligent.
But I don’t really think that’s it either I think it’s just the way my mind works. I’m still basically learning at the rate of a child if I really want to and retain/relay information very quickly but I just don’t flex it or use it nearly as often as I probably should. Mostly I end up teaching or entertaining/inspiring others.
Which I do like doing and I get the same kinda thrill out of it but it’s not the same as when you find someone on your level who knows shit you don’t. I get excited and infatuated over it. Even if someone is just insufferable and ignorant if I can squeeze a little bit of cleverness or thoughtfulness out of them or if someone can surprise me I’m like: YES! YEEEES! FINALLY!
Which is why I fell stupid for that girl, she was like that. Brilliant and beautiful. She’s the only one that I can even really remember making me feel stupid as I talked to her. Of course I wasn’t, she thought I made her feel stupid. But I saw that spark in her and I spent YEARS nurturing it just because it was there. Haven’t found it in 99% of the thousands of people I’ve met.