so wait, if the tumor is techinically still the same size, i'm guessing "necrotization" refers to some sort of percentage or count of malignant cells in the tumor mass?

either way, glad to hear it!

That's really really GREAT news! Stay strong, Steel. I'd totally make that cancer-theme game if would make you feel better. XD

thanks for that horrifying bit of information when every doc told me it was routine and they saw them all the time.

haaaargh.

Oh, I thought they removed it already! But yeah, afaik from when gramps had a bunch of 'em, once they found it there is no danger at all anymore, it's only a risk if you don't know it's there.[/Dr McBloodClotExpert] But yeah tbh I don't know shit besides gramps' ramblings.

Also if you can be arsed / have the will power / steel-in' juice to respond, what does it mean the tumor is dying? Like when it dies will it just, disappear or will it have to be removed surgically? Does making it die make it safer to operate it out?

Yeah man I hope you start having enough excess energy for Posting soon cause it's been quiet as hell here without you

I think it's fair to say you're absolutely thrashing illness.

so wait, if the tumor is techinically still the same size, i'm guessing "necrotization" refers to some sort of percentage or count of malignant cells in the tumor mass?

either way, glad to hear it!

probably just refers to what percentage of the mass of the tumor is actually dead tissue just chillin

bump for a gw reason.

I've been getting a few PMs that aren't related to this topic. like, proofread x, check y, that kind of stuff. I haven't replied to like any of them, but it's not because I want to be RUDE or anything. my right hand has two fingers that essentially don't work; the tumor has pushed up on my shoulder, which is pinching a nerve (the same one in your funny bone) and so I can't type anything of length. this post is one of the longest I've made in a while. it's just too irritating to have to jump my fingers around for a post. so if I don't reply to your PM, don't take it personal; I just can't really type at length for anything.

anyway, chemo starts up again on Monday, a five day one. W00T.

That's pretty rad man, hopefully this trend continues.

man excellent

so today I was playing around with the ball lifting thing, the one that measures lung capacity, and I got it up and over the normal limit for the first time! that's good, because it means there's less pressure on my lung, meaning the thing is still shrinking.

on the negative side I have such bad diarheaa today JOKES I know but it's near intolerable, my stomach is killing me.

anyways, one month to go huh. tomorrow is a white blood cell injection, and tuesday is another 30 min chemo. just finished up one of the week ones, and I feel miserable HOORAY. this is such a bad time. and now Isaac Hayes is dead!

Hey Steel, when/if (hopefully when!!) you get of this alive, do you think you will make any changes to your diet/lifestyle or carry on the way you did pre-diagnosis? This question just popped into my head.

apart from the necessary, not really. maybe drink a little less but that was the plan before this. why? it's not like I ate cancer foods before anyways!

today has been a somewhat bad day. nothing like yesterday but I just feel bad in general. chemo sucks.

bump to say that today was a landmark day. today was the final day of my third cycle, meaning next week marks the beginning of the final cycle of chemo! after that are a bunch of scans and possibly surgery but in three weeks or so no more chemo hooray.

it'll apparently be like two months before I feel back up to 100% again, but I can't wait to start feeling better.

by "possibly surgery," are you saying that after chemo is over and successful, they could possibly choose to leave your now-smaller benign tumor in you?