so does this mean you'll have an extra present-receiving holiday ever year


christmas (??), birthday, end-of-chemo-anniversary

Christmas cake, Birthday cake and Chemo Cake.

Another reason for cake is always good.

Does this mean you have won??

Does this mean you have won??

not till after surgery (if I have it) and then there's a chance of recurrence. the year after cancer is almost tougher than the cancer diagnosis because every pain and cough makes you horribly scared and depressed DID IT COME BACK etc.

Well done, man.

I'm genuinely proud and happy about this.

I am glad that you are doing better, and that you are feeling better!

My fiance's dad is suffering with renal cancer... and her whole family is taking it hard.
he was living with his mother, but he's now in hospis because he was losing weight dramatically and could not keep food down. The doctors said that chemo would not be an effective treatment for him, because of his kind of cancer, and that the only way they can extend his life is if they get surgery. Before they do that however, they have to get him back up to a certain weight. there's a five percent chance he will not make it through the surgery, but he'd rather take that chance than suffer for five years.

that's tough man. what kind of surgery is he going to have? can he do the robotic surgery? I'm planning on that myself (Da Vinci is the name of the surgical robot, google it if you are curious)

anyways I threw up today, which sucks because it's been about four days since my last chemo. side effects blow.

just a small rant here: cancer really sucks. treating it sucks. being AFRAID of it sucks. I was doing okay with the fear thing until I read a comic book of all things (the book was the 52 series) and a character died of cancer. I forgot its a painful death. that's horrible! I'm 22, I don't want to die in pain or hopped up on morphine. I don't want to EVER die, but I really don't want to die like that.

this Indian guy we knew who worked with the church was on life support and he died a few days ago; he chose to disconnect his life support. he was 70+ years old and I still don't think I could make that decision at that age. I love life.

basically rightnow you are all privy to one of the deadlier side effects of cancer, which is that apparently cancer survivors have a higher rate of depression and suicide than other people. this shit is just too scary and awful for words sometimes.

so quit smoking guys. I like all of you too much to want any of you to go through this. there were days I haven't talked about in this topic, days of just INSANE NAUSEA, the kind where you throw up everything and can't eat and there's this BURN in your throat. there was one day where I ODd on some medicine or something and I had SLOW SEIZURES. do you know how scary that is? your arm just wants to lift and it becomes harder and harder to push it down and you don't have control over your body as it just slowly kind of seizes up.

I'll probably be okay, I don't want anyone to read this and be like HES DOOMED. I'm scared of surgery, because I had a friend whose mom died on the bed during a routine surgery, but other than that, I've maybe BEATEN CANCER (maybe, the scans will say more). but this was a terrible fucking time.

is there any chance of some of your hair growing back or does chemo kill it for good?

I'm pretty sure it only falls off temporarily. A friend's mom had cancer a few years ago and went through therapy, but when I saw her like half a year ago it had all grown back.

Yeah when my friend had cancer his hair improved.

Before chemo he had kind of scraggly straight hair but after chemo he grew masses and masses of curly locks

I miss my eyebrows more than hair.

no real reason its just somehow sadder to be without eyebrows.

well yeah cos if you've got brows then you still look like you might just have shaved your head as a style but with no brows there's only a couple possibilities and none of them are too splendid. you get those back though, right?

yeah they should regrow. I also lost my eyelashes mostly, which is pretty nuts because I have always had fantastically long eyelashes (I got complimented on them like a hundred times in the hospital).

"Boy those are some pretty lashes..... on your pillow ​" -an nurse

I miss my eyebrows more than hair.

no real reason its just somehow sadder to be without eyebrows.

my roommate is an indian guy who shaved his own head last year and thought 'hm, having eyebrows and no hair looks weird!' so he shaved his own eyebrows.

you are not alone
also you look loads better with chemo scars and no hair than he did with no hair

also congrats on getting through chemo dude. but we all knew you'd get through it!

Treg is lying, you look sick and depressed in that picture

ugh man I am so fucking scared of getting cancer i am so scared

Congrats though, glad you pulled through. You're not a Gaming World hero.

Treg is lying, you look sick and depressed in that picture

haha you have no idea how terrible my roommate looked