Yeah knowing steel and his pension for hidden messages he prolly said something if he was at all capable. I know he wanted to pm every single person that donated for him at one point. it would be really cool if he'd left us something.

hey sredni or jon do either of you guys know or have some way of finding out if maybe he wrote some kind of farewell message or something? I get the feeling that maybe some time after his stroke but before his condition worsened even more that he might have sensed that he wasn't going to make it and maybe wrote something that was intended to be posted either here or on his blog or something.
I guess there's really no way to find out unless you bug his sister to check his computer and this probably isn't the right time for that so idk. It just seems like something that he would have done and it would be a shame for it not to get posted if it does exist.

he's been delirious for the last month, so unfortunately, no

he's been delirious for the last month, so unfortunately, no

Man, that somehow makes the whole thing even worse. 

Atleast he won't have to suffer anymore. He's felt more than enough pain already.

i just went back and i was reading some old posts from this topic, including the very first one. i was very affected by what he said at the beginning of all of this:

I just wanted you all to know, if this turns out bad (about a 50% chance it could from what I gathered), you dorks and nerds and faggots are among the best people I've ever met, and if you ever fucking doubt that I want you to remember that I said that, because no one else will be as honest.

man, i have had a hard time dealing with all of this, but reading that really helped.

Don't go back to page one of this thread. I clicked back and it's like reading a story when you already know it has a sad ending.

Don't go back to page one of this thread. I clicked back and it's like reading a story when you already know it has a sad ending.

yeah, that's the bad part about re-reading this stuff... but it's the closest thing to a "dying message".

i am deeply saddened by all of this. When I read the topic the other day I teared up quite a bit. man, I really felt like he had so much to give to the world. I've been fairly quiet the last couple of years, but I always enjoyed reading what steel had to say. I was introduced to one of my favorite authors by him in a topic in literature. It really hurts to think I'll never get to hear his thoughts again. I just don't think I'll ever meet anyone as passionate about life as he was. He will be greatly missed.

I keep checking this topic multiple times a day, expecting more. I don't know what, but steel was larger than life and him just slipping away one day just isn't fair. Steel was always this passionate, intelligent, super-hero of GW and I would read his posts and just marvel. I was always intimidated  by this, so I never really talked to him or had any personal connection. If Steel was asked to name all the GW members he could think of, I probably wouldn't make the list, and that fact is legitimately a major regret of mine.

I hardly knew him, but he was one of the people that I enjoyed reading everything that he wrote for the most part.

Even without knowing him properly i am still really fucking sad about this all. I feel like I could cry, christ.

I just thought you'd all like to know that Steve read aloud a small collection of your posts in this thread at the funeral. I'm sure Amark appreciated it.

this is the saddest/sweetest thing ever dude 

I just thought you'd all like to know that Steve read aloud a small collection of your posts in this thread at the funeral. I'm sure Amark appreciated it.

Thanks for telling us man. Makes us feel like we were part of the healing process for the people that knew him irl. It shows that this man had a great impact on some peoples life, even if just through the internet.

If you guys ever get the time it would be really cool if you could come on and tell us a few things about steel and what he was going through, if its not too tough on you that is. Might help bring some closure for some people.

I don't come to this forum very often nowadays, but I always kept this place bookmarked and made sure to check every few days on how Steel was doing.

I think he and his intelligent posts is part of what kept me here so long in the first place, long after I had abandoned Windows, much less RPG Maker.

Didn't he say something a couple of times about writing an autobiography or something like that? I know its got to be somewhere in this topic because I remembered earlier on he said he was writing to help him deal with it.