basically I think if you've talked to panda and gz about the site at all, you'd be fucking astonished how much they put into this site and how absolutely LITTLE they recieved in return. I had to quit, so did HL; I think we both had good reasons (and arrogant as it is, I think my reason is so good I could post a thousand dicks and maybe write it off at this point because come on PEACH IN HEAD). despite my best pre-tumor efforts, I couldn't get the current staff to work; james the composer appeared at the eleventh hour to say "don't worry I'm here" and then never came back. ptizzle has consistently VANISHED. other contributors have mysteriously disappeared, like BM. other staffers have from the beginning never promised anything.
and then more have just had to quit over time. and somehow NO ONE ON THE FORUMS realized with a new mainsite we need new articles from everyone. they just assumed the call for staff was a one time only thing, DANCE MONKEYS DANCE.
the fact that I've told Bled to fuck off NUMEROUS TIMES and he's writing more articles than people who were on staff is astonishing, but not as astonishing as the number of people who have pledged to help and then...didn't. Bisse might get ticked but lets face it he's one of the better ones up there; his quote says he was contacted and then obviously nothing was followed up on, and it's no surprise he wouldn't be the first to jump in line. but like I said, he's probably the BEST up there, the rest are all people posting now who said "I'll do anything to help!"
and I didn't go to the most recent topics but there's even more.
sooooo where's that help guys?
if you're detecting some anger, of course there is. I'll admit a bit is self loathing as with my medical shit I can't write fuckall and so I feel like yet again I've left panda holding the bag. but a lot of it is genuine irritation. some mods and staff have even been so arrogant as to say "heh good job guys we did it! WE DID IT" as if there was even a WE! it was panda, gz, and some help from goldenratio and I believe Konix. mostly gz!
there were TWO TOPICS made in private for mods and staff. it was supposed to inspire them to work more. you know what happened?
THEY COMPLAINED ABOUT THE FUCKING COLOR SCHEME FOR LIKE THREE PAGES!!! it was horrible! I felt GROWING DISMAY with every new post.
Idk the way everyone else has dropped the ball on this (into panda's bag heh) has been astonishing. there were years of people saying I'LL HELP WHEN YOU'RE READY but apparently unless you hold someone's hand they can't figure out that there's a constant need for articles???