I just dunno. Just watched 2 full and complete video reviews for Final Fantasy XIII. They were terrible. The Gamespot one opened with a guy saying 'Two worlds....Six Unlikely Heroes....and a horde of Fearsome Beasts. It's Final Fantasy, all right' or something like that. Something at least as bad as that. I don't know. I put them on. I am wondering if I am done with this stuff now, or if it still has some sort of appeal to me. I mean watching the footage, and how it has been described, it looks totally awful. Not a new kind of awful of anything, but here I am re-considering the same old crap as being something for me to spend my time on. I'm not even watching the Battlestar Galactica spin-off because all that bullshit just got a bit too much. I seem to be interested in this FFXIII, though, probably because it is set in a world you get to explore or at least pretend you get to explore and you imagine all the cool shit that might be going on in it and that sweeping music is going on and you just get swept up along with it. Except I don't, anymore, really, because all the bad stuff that didn't bother me when I am a kid bother me now. The excitement I feel when I hear some piano line in the distance while the camera is gliding in and out of crystal caves and big open fields and weird looking cities up on mountains and deserts and all of that is still in there...deep inside. That cool stuff I liked and still like to indulge in sometimes, or whatever, is totally strangled by every other aspect of this game and almost every game. Like I could maybe even get on board with the 6 rogues face up against an empire crap if they tried to do it with some intelligence, but nobody has ever done that so maybe you can't.
I don't know. I hope I am finished with it all. Everytime I let my attention wander in the way of it the strength I feel that I am wasting my time and actively making myself stupider.