Right now I'm inbetween two hurricanes in the gulf on a big barge with 15ft waves crashing all around. Its pretty cool. I don't think they're near here though but its supposed to get rougher and I.HOPE.IT.DOES.

depressed; trying not to do anything self-destructive

Right now I'm inbetween two hurricanes in the gulf on a big barge with 15ft waves crashing all around. Its pretty cool. I don't think they're near here though but its supposed to get rougher and I.HOPE.IT.DOES.

stay safe!

so i suffer from "MAJOR DEPRESSIVE DISORDER" or something and have recently been dealing with a whole ton of anxiety problems and it totally sucks balls. i can't even hold a part-time job for godsake. for months i was afraid to drive anywhere, and only recently have i been able to even drive to the local supermarket. god hates me (he gave me terrible taste in movies) i'm pretty sure. everyone i know in life is going somewhere, except me. so recently i sleep in late, stay up late, and do nothing. i CANT do anything, it's the worst feeling. i've been on every medication known to man, and nothing works. i'm currently on "DRUG HOLIDAY" (not as fun as it sounds) and basically my life sucks. thanks for listening. i miss steel.

i feel like punching the universe in the face.

just do what everyone else does and forget about steel when posting in other topics

everyone i know in life is going somewhere, except me

I'm familiar with that

I get this feeling every day but I brush it under the rug so to speak. It's confusing because I don't really know the answer - whether it lies in finding somone who I can be with and love again will make me feel less lonely or if that doesn't matter at all. Nothing is ideal, living by ideals is not healthy but the further away you are from this once known good feeling the worse you feel. Maybe the older you get the less you care and you learn to make do. It seems stupid to even think about your own issues when someone has just died from fucking cancer.

Yeah people are going places except you but maybe you are just waiting for all your buses to come along at once. First on my list is getting this degree without fucking it up then I will get down to the task of squashing out or solving these dumb emotional issues. I'm 22 for crying out loud.

How bout you stop being a fucking bitch and carry yourself

The world sucks, everything sucks. At some point you will have to realize that despite how defeated and worthless you feel you're going to have to carry your own weight and make your way, yourself. You can't do anything positive or constructive if you're constantly laying about and wallowing in self pity. There is a reason to be depressed in everything but you've got to learn to ignore that and grind through it. You can make things better for yourself and only you can do that. pills ain't gonna help you and a doctor isn't gonna make you happy, he's just gonna tell you what I'm telling you in a round about way.

Go fucking do something.

And if you fuck it up, brush off dem' shouldas and keep walkin' homey cus the world ain't gonna end till you do.

how bout we all just hug and stop this nonce sense

I do carry myself, I stopped using antidepressants last year and I changed my lifestyle by moving university. I am not wallowing in self pity at all, I am stronger than I used to be I no longer wallow. I am just looking for the right path to iron out the irrational bad feeling that I can't help it's just there it's not conscious thought - it's just a negative feeling that doesn't seem to lift. It would be nice to feel happy and not dull. I am doing something productive with my time and I'm not gonna fuck it up this time around. I am on the right path I am sure, it's just the physical feeling of despair is still there and doesn't seem to want to fuck off. Call me what you want, I was just saying it on the off chance that one of you has sorted this shit for yourself and know what needs doing.

you need to get yourself checked out on an e-meter


I accept cash

Yesterday the Eagles got robbed on the 2nd challenge by udder bull shit and they should of had there first down. In the video you can clearly see that he passed the FD line and the other elbow couldn't of been any where on the ground because it was resting on a bunch of bodes.

im blowin out my brain right now

when all the redtops were talking about Harry going to Afghanistan, I was like 'cool he can magic them some aid' until I realised they were on about the worthless harry.

I get this feeling every day but I brush it under the rug so to speak. It's confusing because I don't really know the answer - whether it lies in finding somone who I can be with and love again will make me feel less lonely or if that doesn't matter at all. Nothing is ideal, living by ideals is not healthy but the further away you are from this once known good feeling the worse you feel. Maybe the older you get the less you care and you learn to make do. It seems stupid to even think about your own issues when someone has just died from fucking cancer.

Yeah people are going places except you but maybe you are just waiting for all your buses to come along at once. First on my list is getting this degree without fucking it up then I will get down to the task of squashing out or solving these dumb emotional issues. I'm 22 for crying out loud.

Stop being a Psyburn.

when all the redtops were talking about Harry going to Afghanistan, I was like 'cool he can magic them some aid' until I realised they were on about the worthless harry.

i thought this also