i cannot gain weight. i weigh between 125-140 pounds usually but one time i weighed 150 when i was super depressed and slept all day. i'm 6'1" and vegan and i eat a ton of food. if i take my shirt off i scare people. i can't tan either. my skin is the color of bird shit. my shoulderblades stick out like a foot from my grotesque, skeletal torso. if i'm wearing a t-shirt you can see the notches in my spine when i lean forward. i generate huge amounts of body heat but due to poor circulation, my hands and feet are always cold. warmess is fucking torture because it just makes my hands and feet feel colder. i crack my fingers constantly. my back cracks whenever i get up or sit down or bend over to pick something up. my ankles and toes crack with literally every step i take. i can crack my fucking eyelids. getting out of bed in the morning sounds like a fire in a forest of pine trees. i'm on speed. i can't touch my toes if i try. i can barely even touch my shins if i'm standing up. i walk without bending my knees, which makes a lot of people think i'm a robot or at least i think it makes a lot of people think that. pants that use any fabric other than denim give me a permanent boner. a permaboner if you will. i have leg hair, arm hair, foot hair, finger hair, toe hair, nipple hair, ass hair, asscrack hair, back hair, neck hair, tip of my nose hair, and some bigass eyebrows. people are intimidated by my eyebrows. i have a 7 finger forehead. i always have long hair to hide my eyebrows and forehead because they are very big. at the age of 12 i realized that my forehead makes me look like i'm going bald. everyone on my mother's side of my family started balding in their early 20s. they are also borderline autistic and  riddled with mental illness which makes me kind of wonder why the fuck my mom decided to make a baby. i wore glasses until 8th grade and was so fucking ugly with them that nobody ever talked to me and i didn't understand how to interact with people. i still don't really. i'm fucking tweaked out as hell. jesus fucking christ. i wore contacts after that and got some confidence and learned how not to be a little aspergers faggot. after a year i decided to only wear one contact so i lost all my depth perception and a lot of basic motor skills. when i was 15 i had sex. it was dead silent and you could hear my fingers and neck and back cracking. i was so scared that i yelled and started crying. she got pregnant later but she aborted it. i didn't talk to anyone for a summer. i practiced holding my breath every day. sometimes i would pass out and wake up 16 or 17 hours later. i could hold my breath for 7 minutes. later that year i kicked this tiny chinese girl in the face accidentally and couldn't stop laughing even though i felt so bad. i can't remember anything before 6th grade besides one of my teachers who raped a kid and didn't get fired because it was a small catholic school so i left the school and went to public school. in 6th grade i got really into anime. in 8th grade i got really into prog rock and started dressing like a normal human being. my biological father is a pedophile who molested a ton of his nieces or whatever and maybe me but i don't remember. i am scared of haircuts. my stepdad is very conservative and a salesman and i called him a soulless cunt when i was going through my marxism phase and he literally took my bed out of my room. i slept on the couch for 2 years. i smoked weed inside of my high school and got expelled. i appealed and my mom called them out on some legal loophole and i got back in. i was supposed to get randomly drug tested for the rest of high school but i never did. i smoked weed every day. i drank a lot of cough syrup. i drank so much robitussin that i think i completely changed my personality for the better. once i took a lot of oxycontin and had constant hiccups for 3 days which made me panic and cry a lot. every time i look at the clock and it's 4:20 i do a little fistpump. i used linux once and didn't like it.

i have a great smile though and if i smile at someone they usually smile back. i don't know how to end the smile though so i usually mutter something under my breath and touch my face and turn and walk away quickly. i hate myself for like 20 seconds whenever i do that. i write 4 how it's typed rather than the way that makes it look like a weird fork with an extra thing sticking out the side. i'm in love with ralph nader. i have a picture of krillin from dbz as my background. my clock and computer are making this weird rhythm right now because they're both a little broken. i think i'm happier than some people. i see CodeBLACK reading this. CodeBLACK has a clipart picture of an angry black man for his avatar. e-mail CodeBLACK at [email protected].

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i can't even read this because i'm shaking and rocking back and forth in my chair at ridiculous speeds. my forehead is sweating but my feet are so cold.

nice. are you dom?

i don't know who that is.

i have always been buttkiller.

how fast can you reply to this post?

oh not that fast. i was doing other things. i was petting a dog. i drank some water and looked at my window. i thought it's 5 pm and it's so dark out. i thought maybe other people are looking at me in my window. i waved.

sounds tiring work man, sounds like you needs a SNOOZE

nah i slept for 10 hours last night. i'm well-rested as heck right now.

does it help you concentrate or what?

kind of. it doesn't tell me what to concentrate on though so i do useless stuff for hours

this is awesome

this is awesome

thanks i like it when i can remember things about myself