You can't help human reflexes sometimes. When I was really drunk and 19 years old I actually did use the N-word to refer to a black guy. A friend and I had been called over by this couple who had another friend with them (this black dude). They were like in their late thirties or early forties, and the conversation turned to the fact that we were gay. The couple shook our hands and said some pretty nice things, but the black guy got pretty aggressive about it, told us to fuck off and that he didn't shake hands with queers.

The couple apologised and said not to worry, their friend was a Neanderthal, so my friend and I walked off. When we left, I said "That fucking N-word, how dare he", really incensed by the idea that, as a minority myself I was open to other minorities, yet he'd been prejudiced about me. I also kind of felt at the time that being a white gay guy was somehow higher up in society than being a black dude, so he had no call to be prejudiced towards me if I was being friendly towards him. The friend I was with chose to argue with me as we walked back, explaining why, even though I was insanely insulted and filled with rage, it was still not ok to sink to his level and call the black guy that word. Otherwise where was I getting off with my moral high ground? Why was I suddenly deciding to act like an ignorant racist based on one interaction with a black dude who was a prick himself?

I actually reflected a lot on that after it happened, and even though I was pretty drunk and had all the excuses in the world, my friend will always have a memory of me flipping out and saying the N-word to refer to black guys, so they'll effectively always have a memory of me being an ignorant racist. Pretty sucky situation overall.

It would have been far better to just call him a prick or asshole rather than bringing his specific minority-type into the equation, because the way it worked out we BOTH ended up as total pricks.

yeah I remember that. I think the reason I tried to make that connotation is because I assumed that because the spaniards conquored alot of south america (I'm pretty sure, maybe wrong?) that modern south americans being their descendants meant they weren't white. I've never been to spain and don't know a whole lot of spanish history so I just assumed that spaniards weren't considered white. I think I had this idea that spainiards looked like darker italians or something and I thought that a full blooded spanish person wasn't considered to be white.

Haha I once asked Paolo which of these groups has never successfully invaded the area of Britain: A) Romans, B) Saxons, C) Spanish, D) Vikings, and he said C hahaha. I rib him about that even now.

"WHAT YOU THINK THE SPANISH SUCCESSFULLY INVADED HAHAHAHAHA".

It's weird that a lot of otherwise intelligent people totally overlook the need for historical study. Like it's so important even if you want to discuss issues and shit. I blame schools for not FORCING kids to do history constantly, damn it. Full stops, rounders, and History - wait until I'm education secretary...

JOIN THE CLUB MOTHER FUCKER


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