Topic: I wonder if anyone else has cried at this bus station. (Read 430 times)

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Hey guys. It's been a really long time. I just have a quick favor to ask of you.

I carry Amark Patra's book, Breaking The System, with me in my backpack almost wherever I go. I didn't know Steel very well when he was here. I think I was too much of a kid back them. I miss him a lot.

Recently I have been wanting to revisit the message he left the world with, and the advice that went along with it. I'm sure many of you were as touched as I was when reading it. I only have a small segment of it, which I have saved in my online journal, so to speak.

"As for me; I'm not ready to die. I don't want to. I'll go into this surgery prepared to survive. I'll fight cancer with every last bit of strength I've got. You can shoot me and I'll keep going. But if I do, do not mourn me. I have had a decent life so far. I'm only 22 and I've already gotten so high I've felt the rhythm of the universe around me. I've gotten so drunk in a parking lot that I started singing for no reason. I've known pain, both emotional and physical, that most people don't know till much further in life. I've fallen in love and had my heart broken. I've seen the inside of a jail cell. I beat someone up once to protect a friend, even though I was outnumbered and about five years old. I have done both great and awful things in my life. I have cried tears for dead people I never knew, and I have broken doors in rage over people I cannot save. I have lived a life. I hope I get to keep on living. I hope I can fall in love again and this time make it work. I hope I can adopt a child. I hope I can see my friends get married. I hope I can make an album. I hope I can learn to write, and write well. I hope I can save an innocent man from dying. I hope I can live.
But if I don't, your life still goes on. There are innocent men who will still die if no one saves them. There are weddings and parties to attend that will be missing one guest. There's a beautiful girl reading a book somewhere or about to go to sleep who might suddenly shiver, and not understand why. There are still children who need families. Never stay content unless you've earned it. You have no greater purpose in life than to help others, no matter how small an effort you can exert.
And don't forget I love you."
Love you all. Hope you guys are doing well.

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It's nice that the book and the guy means something to you. He means a lot to me too. If you want the whole letter, i can send it to you.

Also good luck with ur life!! if you aren't staying. Take the point to the heart about always fighting against your fears, just do everything you feel like doing (save evil shit). there is nothing but doing/trying/ACTION in your life anyways, regret nothing, stress every path... i'm saying this with some pretty hefty retrospective (cryptic cos i don't want to talk about my private life to that extent).
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Goodluck with ur live! May peace be with you.
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Hey Parker. It really is a message to live by. Thanks for stopping in, and good luck!
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yeah, those words and his whole way of thinking really moved me to try to live by them any way I can.
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How touching, Steel was awesome, It's sad that's gone. He could aways be deep, some times be a dick (arn't we all) but most imporantly, he was human, more human then a lot of people who lived two or even four times as long as he. steel for life.
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I was wondering if it was possible to look through alot of the stuff he left in his posts on here to make a memorial page or something. Kind of like a guide to who steel was and why he was so influential here. Just so newer people could look and understand how he pretty much built this place and also a place to get a quick reminder of who he was and what we liked about him. 
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it'd cut out a huge amount of the magic though. posting on gamingw while steel was around, you could post in every topic at once and come back 3 minutes later to each one of your posts destroyed in horrific detail. i'm pretty sure he accounted for at least half of the activity here, and just seeing the content doesn't give you that real-time experience of seeing someone outclass everyone else by such a margin.
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yeah you're right

Maybe just tidbits like when he talked about kurt vonnegut being important, that dude that was gonna get executed, his last letter.

shit that stands by itself not the actual arguing. I liked the arguing and it fed our fire but I don't think its the most important thing about him.
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Not arguments specifically, just how prolific he was. He could write faster than most people could read, and he could read faster than most people could think. This isn't even exaggerating, he was a monster if you check some of his time stamps.
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