You migth not even care but if you are bored or something..I hope you read it and you can make fun of me or help me or w/e,I just been sitting here for 1 hour not knowing wtf to do(its like 1 am here so I cant go outside) so I decided to post it here...because the internet is neutral.

Alot of shit has been happening in my life lately..but thats irelevant...to make a long story short.. I recently found out that everyone I know and cared about (my family and my friends) just used me for their own gain! I know I sound like some whiny-ass white kid but... I dont know it just hurts so much.. but what hurts me the most is that my so called "Best Friend" used my feelings so he could gain shit,he made me fall in love with his daugther.. but she never loved me! She was never mine..infact I found out she hated me and she just hung out with me cause her dad told her so.. her dad knew that aslong as she asked me for something she would get it...

I knew I had to do something to forget all the pain..yesterday I overdosed with some drugs(some maryj and then crystal meth) and It did help I was in a liminal state for a while..when I came to my senses my "friends" were shoving me into the trunk of a car that had a SubWoofer in it(they were planning to  put full blast and they had planted some cameras to "film" my reaction)..at that moment this random message replayed in my head "Your life can be change forever in 1 minute if you make a mistake",my mother used to tell me that alot..I just always told her to fuck off...anyways I jumped out of the trunk before they could close the trunk and I just ran...and I kept running.. I think they tried to chase me...but I dont know,Atleast Im alive and safe now but...the pain from that girl is still in my chest!

I fucking loved her! Even after she betrayed me.. I want to protect her! I know she wont be happy just using people like she did to me all her life,the worse part is that  is that I will never see her again cause we live in 2 different countries...

Sorry guys...Im sorry for being pathetic and posting here...Im sorry...

keep your friends close to your heart man, keep those fucking friends close

keep your friends close to your heart man, keep those fucking friends close

What friends? Im telling you I got no friends..are you telling me to just remember the good times I had with them before I realized how everyone was just using me? and forget all the bad stuff?

Your best friend was a father and you were in love with his daughter?

Once you think you're sane, don't bother thinking about the rest of them. They're assholes, so don't talk to them. Don't piss them off, though, otherwise you're going to feel shitty for life. But it's all really up to you.

I was planning on doing just that...going back there and just treat everyone like shit or something..you know somekind of revenge...but your saying I should just forget everything? Move on?

can you elaborate more on the situation otomon.

Yeah I'm kind of confused by this too...

But I don't understand something though. How were you able to go out with a girl that lived in a different country?

Okay I guess I should explain more,the last 6 months I been living in Mexico it was only suposed to be a 4 month vacation(but it wasnt a vacation at all cause my uncle only wanted me to go so he could use me to work for him) but I stayed there longer,anyways in there I made alot of friends,one of them was this girls father,we became really close in the sense that he taugth me everything...I wont go into details but he taugth me stuff my father never did cause i dont got one lol ...anyways I started hanging out with him..and I would go to his house every nigth...and well eventually I became friends with his daugther too but..she only saw me as her dad`s friend... she would never look at me as a boyfriend..a lover ..a husband.. I was just her dad`s friend...

You need to realize that in life most of your troubles and strife are really very minuscule.

Find new friends and look at yourself, it might be hard but try and decide for yourself if you act like a likable person and if the people around you are just shitty people or if you give them a reason to be shitty.

Whats the age gap?

Lets give the actors names and ages...okay...

Otomon(ME) = 18

Teriyaki(Dad) = 33

Lorein(Daugther) = 15

Luke...

You need to realize that in life most of your troubles and strife are really very minuscule.

Find new friends and look at yourself, it might be hard but try and decide for yourself if you act like a likable person and if the people around you are just shitty people or if you give them a reason to be shitty.

But my question is..what do I do in the time before I make new friends? and what if those new friends turn out to be hypocrites too?

we're here for you buddy. please remember that, okay?

I think everyone goes through some uber whiney phase somewhere down the line.  Just keep in mind that life has its ups and downs.  There's a lot of shit that goes on when we're kids and we just don't realize it.  When we're older, it's a lot easier to comprehend.  It's a lot easier to realize other things, like who our friends are, who cares about us, etc.  You've had this happen before (at least something this traumatic) without knowing it.

Humans synthesize happiness, though.  Stick with a decision, be definite, and you will be happy.  Who's happier after a year?  A person who loses both legs in an accident or a person who wins the lottery?  In a year, the two will be at equal points of happiness.  The person who had millions of dollars will eventually get off of the high of being rich (think about like how awesome it is to get a brand new computer/game/etc).  The person who lost both legs will cheer up (this was for the best, I'm still alive, I appreciate life more).  It was proven by some guy at Harvard -- I had the presentation a while back, but I've lost it now.  Go figure.

You can, however, look at the the good things and be proactive.  This is a GREAT inspirational video:
http://glumbert.com/media/lastadvice
It's a way to look at what we do to get what we want and living proof about everything.  I know a lot of people will disagree and say "Just because you do everything right doesn't mean you will get what you want."  Good things happen to good people, though.  In time.  Just gotta keep looking up.  And in the end, the only way to be ok with you is to be ok with what you do -- that's the only thing you can control.

I highly advise backing away from your 33 year old friend.  If he has 15 year old daughter, then he had her when he was 18...  Doesn't seem like a responsible fellow.  Be proactive in everything -- don't befriend and open up to jerks.  If someone is in need, be friendly and helpful, and all the like.  Of course, this is if you're happy doing that kind of thing.  Be ok with yourself and then everything else falls into place.  Moments like this will be a momentary down, and you'll be happy with the long-term result.

Best of luck.  When you figure out how to overcome this, you'll know what it'll take from now on -- ultimately you are in control of your life.  But seriously -- try using your gut -- if something feels wrong/weird, it probably is -- especially with this "older friend."

--Terin