yeah i mean it is ridiculous for people to say NOOOO I AM INCAPABLE OF DEALING WITH THIS when you are the one who has to go through this all over again after the last what six months of hell, but a lot of people (including me! what the hell!) do not know what to say to this! "this sucks man, i am opening fruityloops and making a david bowie cover for you"? if we say nothing there's no show of support, but almost everything we would say sounds like the least sincere and most useless thing in the world. i do not know what you are going through. i can't imagine going through it twice, especially with your family. hopefully it's not as bad as you anticipate, but good luck and try not to get too despairing even though part of your body is trying to kill you.
i am trying to think of activities you could do when weak as hell and all i can think of is placing a tape recorder nearby and freestylin to pass the time. learn to play a new musical instrument with only the power of your mind. watch every single high school anime in japanese with subs and close your eyes sometimes and try to learn the beautiful language.
