Well, to be honest, it's more along the lines of I already have friends, but I'm afraid to talk to them anymore. I've been like this ever since graduation, and to be honest, it has more to do with me being ashamed of myself than anything else. I had plans to go to college after graduation, and I still do, but many things have held me back from doing so, and financial reasons is one of them. On top of that, I can't seem to get out of the endless cycle of being broke. I just feel like everything I've worked for over the past four years has completely gone down the drain, and I don't want to show my face to the people I know who had higher hopes for me.
Yes, I know I sound really retarded and douche-like, but I actually am starting to feel a bit better by posting about it online.