I've been reading my own past post.

My god I was ridiculous back then. I built up this online persona that was so polemic and pedantic. And I know I did it for fun, to shake the sheets a bit, specially when I felt GW was starting to decline evidently.

you better not be drinking

in my experience, getting into running makes everything better. maybe it's just my way of running away from problems, heh heh heh.

i did this thing -> http://www.c25k.com/

half an hours running is pretty meditative PLUS you feel healthier PLUS you're getting goals achieved PLUS you can get involved in a running community PLUS it's a half hour (or usually more) that you're not doing something counter-productive.

but I hate being out of breath

faux pas man... faux pas

you don't show GW to your girlfriend,
you don't show GW to your mother that gave you birth,
you don't show GW to anyone
except maybe your dog

Lately, I've been listening mostly to:

LCD Soundsystem
The Walkmen
Girls
Chillwave (Washed out, Small Black, Memory Cassette/Memory Tapes/Weird Tapes, VEGA, etc)
The Beta Band
Jim O'Rourke
Deerhunter
Neutral Milk Hotel, Olivia Tremor Control
Simon & Garfunkel
Fugazi
etc
but I also listen to loads of other things (not metal, not rap, not cringe pop...)

backflip your way to success kiddo

i am also still really uncomfortable with the title of this thread

THIS IS YOUR HISTORY, CHILD! ACCEPT THE SHAME! BATH YOURSELF IN IT!

also, woah mkk is a lesbian, interestins

Buddhism basically is agnosticism, but it ain't monolithic there's a lot of varieties and some are almost indistinguishable from deity-worship.
I'd be down with it if it weren't for the aesceticism, I'm too much of a decadent hedonistic neurotic. I'll never reach nirvana with all the baggage I'm carrying.

You refer to the buddhist concept of emptiness, that all things in an objective reality have no value, and that it's people and their subjective perception of things that end up giving thing value, and thus end up suffering from it. Example: a pencil for a dog is a piece of wood, but for us it's an instrument for writing, so we are giving the pencil a value of utility. Same goes with friends and people we give our affection, we create these values on these people, and when they disappoint us, we suffer.
Jamie has given alcohol a very extreme value, and he's been attached to it and dependent to it. When really alcohol is this substance that should have no significance at all, in an objective reality. It's just that us humans, inevitably end up putting value on things and then end up fucking shit up and suffer.

Buddhist monks take this concept to the extreme and real significance, and follow asceticism. But the regular buddhist person don't follow this to its extreme. What I'm trying to say is that for us, normal people who fall in love and may have addicting tendencies to whatever, it is very useful to understand the concept of emptiness, to avoid great suffering once these things we give value betray us.


Also Buddhism is monolithic itself: it's the Buddha and his teachings.
Thing is that to make it accessible to people in the past, it has been combined with the religions/traditions at the time. In Tibet, the deities that we see in their gompas belong to the previous Bon tradition. When Buddhism was introduced in Tibet, it was made cohesive with the religion of the time.
It's also true that even in Tibet there are 4 branches of Buddhism... the Dalai Lama belongs to one of them, the yellow hats (in western slang). I don't know where the differences lie. If it is a historical dispute, an interpretative dispute, etc.

I'm agnostic, but I follow Buddhism as much as I can. For us westerners it's a philosophy of life (for tibetans and further east, a religion), it doesn't have a god, just a teacher that teaches us the way to overcome suffering (the Buddha).
I have several books about buddhism and the dalai lama, and reading them gives me a lot of serenity and peace of mind, and stability and clarity about what things in life are important. Sometimes it's not that buddhism teaches me things, it has many concepts that I know myself already, but to hear/read these concepts being told by someone else is on one hand affirming and strengthening one's own considerations about many thing, and on the other, revealing new details.

This is just a suggestion, as I see you brought up the spirituality word.

BECOME THE MAN YOU ALWAYS WANTED TO BE, JUST LIKE I HAVE

you are not the man you think you are and I do not like that moustache

Aight, Jamie. I guess you're back at Scotland? Last thing I knew about you was maybe Australia, I think.
I've been in Scotland, did a roadtrip with GaZZwa and another buddy, from england, all the way up to Edinburgh, going past several places.
What I could tell is that other than Edinburgh and Glasgow, the place is pretty small and gloom (well we went for the new year, winter n shit).
Do you live in one of those typical scottish small towns, or are you in Glagow/Edinburgh?

Thing is, I wonder what kind of environment you live in. Do you have a good relation with your parents, in the sense of whether they are supportive about your issue?
Your lack of social life is not good. Most of us know what a lack of social life is like. It's not good for our mental health, you need people that can back you up, whether they are friends or family. Never underplay the importance of family though. (I know British people are quite non-attached from their parents, not like over here were we really like to have a good bond with our parents. Like, my dad is like a good friend for me, and he helps me with my own doubts.)
I think that you should just start getting more involved with activities. Anything that could be of interest, or maybe not of interest but know that does you good, like going to the gym. I dunno, here are some ideas: any sport, carpentry workshops, painting/sculpting workshops, trekking groups, mountain bike groups, diving groups, etc
The idea is to keep yourself busy with new stuff, filling you with enthusiasm, sense of purpose, thirst for challenges, and allows you to interact with people.
The best way to forget alcohol is by switching your interest into something else. And self-control. And will to find something else out there.

Also try and revisit old friends, see what they are up to. I've been away for 9 months and when I came back home, I realized I've lost many of my friends. But I was determined to change things, so I got back in contact with some friends, and got in contact with a guy I knew but weren't entirely friends and we decided to get together to jam. So I started getting to know his band of friends, going out with them every weekend, until slowly they welcomed me in the crew. That was thanks to music.

You need to meet people, and get busy with other things. That's my suggestion.




ALSO
Are you still making those youtube videos? I really enjoyed your shit, even though I found it always hard to understand your accent, but I have bad hearing anyway. Hope you're still coming up with new videos, because you're definitively brilliant.

who is jamie? The only jamie >I know is jamicus, and he used to have drinking problems

Am I Richard Pierson?

Finally remember when dr funk came back for the final time and he wasnt as funny as we remembered and actually quite lame. he was like a hero back in the day though, always pushing things really far then getting banned and coming back to rapturous applause

Dr Funk's MILF ruined him

I remember the hearing impairment thing now. I don't think I made much fuss out of that, but actually wondered whether he got that idea from me since I have hearing impairment myself and actually use hearing aids. But what annoyed me the shit out of him was all his dramatic attention whoring.
I think I initially welcomed him, but ended up disliking him, finding him too damn whiny, dramatic, useless, and of bad taste.
Here's how I pictured VB:

felt like wanting to punch faces


ps. fuck you omeg (I dont live in that house anymore btw)

I remember vaginalbarrel being such a scene kid

if you're referring to the "he is building happy mormon future" graduation pics then those were of someone else

thanks for recalling another awesome GW phrase

how do you explain Charles Barkley mythology to regular people