i miss the old kaworu

Kaworu be careful, man.

jesus christ Coxwain fuck off!! he dropped the transformers hobby ages ago, what does that have to do with doing drugs!? besides it's a pretty harmless hobby so

i understand the anxiety of reading his despair but ahhaha do you think REINFORCING the false image of him being a bad person (welp guess.. guess i'm a fool tiger can't change it's stripes...) would do (anybody!!) any good. that's not true at all and i would like you to apologize for that shit!

yeah man you really do need to apologize for that because you basically just said YOU ARE A HUGE FAILURE WHY DON'T YOU JUST GET OUT OF HERE AND GO DIE ALREADY???

jesus christ man yeah this is gonna make the depressed dude who is getting way dangerous with drugs feel much better thanks!!!! definitely helping him!!!

yeah coxswain just kinda hates and calls people stupid when stuff like this happens. I don't think he's trying to get kaworu to realize anything I think he really believes stupidity is what's making kaworu do stuff.

i think cox is right on the money.  don't apologize.

yeah he really doesn't need to apologize for telling a guy whose depression is leading him to mix dangerous drugs that he's a useless sack of shit.  i don't see why he'd ever need to apologize for this.


also he's not right on the money anyone who has remotely talked to kaworu in the last few years even knows that he's done with transformers and w/e (though now i wish that he was still collectin' toys instead of collectin' drugs because something awful is going to happen to him at this rate and it's gonna happen sooner rather than later D: )

Kaworu's posts are like a primer on the downward spiral of addiction, and it really worries me.

I sincerely hope you seek some professional help before it's too late man. There's a way out of the hole, trust me. I don't know much about the circumstances leading up to your drug habits, but I can tell you it's not going to end up going well for you if you don't realize how much harm you're doing to your body in the immediate and in the long run, and then get the motivation to turn things around. That's the first place to start - if you're not motivated to change than nothing can help you. I wish you luck kaworu.

i think cox is right on the money.  don't apologize.

that kaworu is actually doing this because he's a stupid idiot piece of shit, or that the best solution to his problems is to try and get him to bootstrap up and stop feeling sorry for himself

both are pretty bad. coxswain's post sounds like the former, coming from some sort of blockheaded frustration (NO you can't do that thats not how the game goes)

i think some tough criticism is definitely not out of line.  i know this is just a forum, but if you're not willing to say more than "aw kaworu that's crazy you shouldn't do that", you might as well just let him go. 

i know its just a forum but normally in real life if someone is going through a tough time i dont insult them

thanks for the support of some of yous guys. But seriously my messing with shit is the least of my problems, and is more a symptom than anything else. I'm a type-1 manic (also a bit schitzo, but i've been told they're sometimes hard to tell a part) and am often in like no control of my actions, with a very slim chance of me being 'fixed' so to speak

I ain't a fucking addic or anything, just it's nice to fuck yourself up with shit, at least then you know you're not going to have the energy to try hang yourself or something. And it kinda chills you more than just taken the meds normally, so i also get a longer period of feeling in control of myself. So yeah, i appreciate support, but it's really nowhere near simple as just stopping, and given why i do this stuff, some of you may think the end result of stopping is actually worse than like what i do now. (if you're a bit slow, i'm referring to suicide)

anyways enough of this intervention, there's still some of the old kaworu left, i watch bad anime for an hour every morning. it's like childrens tv, the bright colours wake you up. Zoids fuzors at the moment. And if you think the crazyness is a new development, ive had it since before i joined gw, hence those times when i've said or done stuff really fucking stupid and random. it's just a little bit worse these days

zoids fuzors? man what dont tell me they are making spinoffs of zoids i liked zoids

No when I say kaworu is fucking stupid I mean he is making terrible decisions with his life and well being and is endangering himself by doing exactly what causes a drug overdose. I don't care if I sound like I'm being a dick but apparently he does not think he is doing anything wrong and is not asking for advice and is bragging about what can/will potentially kill him. I don't care dude I'm going to say something. Being all like " Oh kaworu ​" is fucking infantile and will not help him and I can't shake him and tell him to quit because I'm not there so I'm going to call him out and try to make him think about it because anything else would be ignored.

I am not going to talk to this guy like he's a poor sick guy hurting himself I'm going to act like this is a fairly intelligent person from what I understand and despite any disabilities he might have right now from reading his posts he seems like he should def know better than to do this to himself so yeah I'm gonna call him out on it sorry.

and I'm sorry if I was mean but this shit pisses me off! if he's going to do something like that to himself and then post about it on here, the whole while people are telling him that it is very dangerous to do that shit and he might possibly overdose on it. And instead of even acknowledging that anyone is saying anything about it he comes back and then repeatedly posts about how he's doing it more and more and is getting worse and worse.


Thats stupid! I don't want to read about how you're happily killing yourself. Obviously you don't want to talk about it and you just want everyone to know and feel like shit because you're doing it and that is childish.

thats like leaving someone a voice message on their phone: "yeah mom I'm gonna cut myself again today. I'm using a six inch serrated knife this time! Gonna leave zigzags in my arm, a big long "Z". Bye! Later!"

and then turning yours off.

I'm not an answering machine dude and I don't wanna hear about how you're killing yourself! I mean if you're going to do it I can't stop you but I hope someone does but I def don't want to hear you bragging about it when I can't do anything about it except yell at you!

and am often in like no control of my actions

bullshit dude you might not have good judgment right now and your mind might not be in the best state but you are not unconsciously scoffing down pills. you can damn well stop that shit or go find help if you want to and giving up on yourself is the worst thing you can do to yourself right now.

i don't know anything about kaworu, but for me, it actually helps when people i care about or respect get angry or fed up with me cos it wakes me up a bit. i remember one time when a member here said he was done with all my bullshit, actually a few did, and i think i got alot better after that cos i just stopped splurging bullshit for a while and thought about things. it made me happier and i think it improved me a bit, too.

i don't know anything about kaworu, but for me, it actually helps when people i care about or respect get angry or fed up with me cos it wakes me up a bit.

yeah i get this but unless we know that kaworu is one of those people it seemed KINDA DANGEROUS to just assume he is and start shoutin at him, which i think is why most of us weren't really saying anything too rough at him.  it's not out of NOT WILLING TO DO ANYTHING it's just you don't wanna approach this wrong!!!

i agree, it's never been that anyone didn't want to do anything, it just isn't something you play around with too wild, which is what you know. i'm undecided as to what addicts need though - a rough scream in the face or gentle handling? i think it might be both, followed by a sustained period of existence in a very disinfected environment, but you just can't get that for free, and alot of people don't want it. all i know is an occasional scream in the face improves my life. you need to want it, all my problems start from the moment when i didn't want it and then later on realised that i did.