we have standards to uphold. what would wishmoo think if they saw this?
your life isn't ruined bud. none of that stuff is permanent unless you have actual irreversible damage from drug use, and even that doesn't end your life. as a lot of people here already know, a few years ago I had late stage lyme disease which caused some damage to my brain and gave me a pretty severe depression. for years I felt like such a stupid fucking idiot limited by my own brain and I thought there was no way I'd ever get better, let alone return to normal. I'm still not there yet but I'm better now and I don't even think about that shit anymore. you'll change in time, try to head in a good direction
edit: who censored that which shall not be named I feel like I'm in 2003
Thanks you're like an enlightned buddha. My intention with the topic was to express these feelings and also alert others. I do not think I have no salvation. As you said, I'm trying to head to a personal direction. I hope you are 100% all right from your brain damage. Never stop physical exercise. I also recommend meditation. I think you're a cool intelligent guy. Sorry for never sending more songs to you for the game!

I never had brain desease, but I'm 100% sure that, besides add, i suffer from disrealization/dispersonalization. I used to feel normal as a kid, but suddenly some strange feeling of being "in a dream", or drugged or something, started to show up when I was at crowded or places with a lot of noise, like arcade games places, birthday parties. One day it happened on christmas party, and I didn't like it. It's disrealization (look it up). Now I feel like that 24h. Anyway, I'm trying to study, I have a 4h a day job. Things are getting better, and I've lowered on the drinks.