hi
ed that's tough and too bad. i had some of that recently, for months! but it has kind of taken a good turn lately, although i'm not saying anything like hold in there it'll work out because honestly i held in there for way too long and while what i have at the moment is good, it really wasn't worth the complete void my life was for months. it's only because i got so angry about what a waste of myself i was being that i am relatively okay with things now, because i threw out a lot of excessive investment and feeling (and found other ways to deal with it, too). it's impossible to see, and yet very easy to see, how stupid, pathetic, selfish and boring all that obsessively infatuated stuff really is, which is part of what makes it so difficult. i could see how bad what i was doing was for me, and i did it anyway. i also completely quit drinking for months during this time (switched addictions). honestly the obsessing about a woman was worse, because it was constant and debilitating. i'm still not drinking though.
anyway i am getting over it/got over it. i think you will be okay because as far as i can tell (i'm only 21 and have less experience with this bullcrap that some people), it's just a bunch of stuff everybody goes through sometimes. don't do anything stupid and if stuff that seemed important before suddenly doesn't anymore, just try to go through the motions with it for a while until you get your head back. and don't call transgender people cunts...
and what exactly are daddy issues? guys talk about them all the time but i don't even know if i've met a woman who i thought that they had a case of the D.I's. i'm not oblivious, i'm compulsively figuring people out all the time and i think i'm okay at it, but i don't know what daddy issues are. is it a dynamic in a relationship? or is it more focused on how their father factors into their life and desires, like for approval? i guess it is a bunch of stuff like that? maybe it's prevalent in a different kind of environment than what i am used to...all the girls and women i have known about have had milquetoast dads, not bad or rad enough to make a big impression.