this isn't a direct response to anything but i just keep getting the feeling, based on how things are, that nothing is okay. everything is out of balance and skewed heavily towards inequality and bogusness. you can't do anything, you can't participate at all, and not be accountable or involved in some way at least for a whole series of shitty transactions and what's worse is you'll never have time to know what goes on before and after you come in to the process. the only option might be to disengage entirely and come up with your own way of doing things. i want to figure out how to do that.
The world has long been involved with the game of dominant powers rising and falling, and one nation or other will always be Ace #1 imperialist, but it never lasts. The last 1.5 years of being involved with US military work has fucked my mind and revealed to me the dualistic nature of humans: both the tendencies toward a bureaucratic civilization and the animal drive to be cruel and deadly. It's maddening to see the great technological efforts that go into killing others.
I'm glad I joined up in that I have developed a willpower that previously did not exist, and in that I will have the financial ability to live however I like once my contract is up. I urge anyone who is unsatisfied with their country to move out, or unsatisfied with their lifestyle to make great changes.