holy fuck, i don't know what to say now. shit.
all i can do is wish you the best and hope that you'll survive through it. man, i'm seriously at loss of words here, this is horrible.

i dunno how much this means to you now but i just want to tell you that even though we have had our share of disagreements and arguments you are one of the best dudes i have met on the internet and i really really hope you will get through this!