we have the technology...

we can rebuild him...

house md helped kill my brain surgery fears.

you've undoubtedly thought of this already so this won't make you worry but those halos (the brace thing that holds your head still?) freak me out. having it bolted into your skull creeps me out so much. like this combined with the idea of tapping on it or TRIPPING. ugh.

how big a piece of your brain are they taking and from where?

i'll be asleepish while that happens I THINK. aaaa I hope so anyways, I asked him about pain and he said none before, a little after but like a paper cut.

the incision is like a few millimeters, and they'll be taking a grain of rice basically from whatever the weird area is.

hahahah I just read WC's post and man regardless of anything else irt to religious thought etc...

why would someone who had major brain surgery and brain tumors even consider doing a hallucinogen probably ever in their life?

like...man. did you forget that detail or what? I mean I have DAILY SEIZURES why would I do this!

edit: I'm going to assume yeah you forgot because that is otherwise seriously the worst possible advice. unlike dok advice which would eventually kill me taking a psychedelic drug would PROBABLY fuck me up at that moment forever.

the effects of mushrooms on someone missing brain parts prone to seizures is probably not something the medical community has analyzed in great detail.

I watched a talk on transcendal meditation hosted by David Lynch, and he basically said that drug enduced hallucinations are medically really bad for your brain (obviously) and not helpful in reaching enlightenment

bah, it was on youtube, but I cant seem to find it anymore

Free your Mind steel.. Find god

the effects of mushrooms on someone missing brain parts prone to seizures is probably not something the medical community has analyzed in great detail.

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nobody else mentioned this, i don't think, so it probably didn't occur to anyone.  i mean i didnt think all the religious rambling was appropriate but i wasnt thinking NOOOO ITLL KILL HIM!!! either!

yeah I'm hoping because it obviously struck me asap as something that would probably fuck me up in a few seconds and probably permanently and I was like DUDE.

as for the rest I'm not sure where he's getting the idea that all religion came from drug experiences or his anger that people would question this pretty bold assertion but I also didn't read it too hard as the whole "drugs in a fucked head" part took my attention.

oh fun fact remember when I said the drug level probably was too low, high enough for side effects but too low to stop the seizures.

it was at a six.

in order to have an effect you have to have a ten to twenty! lol! so I'm gettin another hit in like three hours. biopsy is scheduled for 7:30 am, and if I'm not too fucking high I'll post sometime after. I will be home at like one or two pm the next day.

it wouldn't mess you up permanently, there's no physiological effects of mushrooms other than a tummy ache and anything that passes the blood brain barrier is so similar to neurotransmitters that are already in there that there's no trace of them after they've been metabolized, they couldn't physically fuck you up because they don't really DO much of anything that's not already going on(forreal look into the biochemistry of psychedelics, it's awfully benign and harmless considering their effects which is why they're so peculiar), the biggest concern would be the whole BAD TRIP which is the most likely scenario for someone in your situation.

the whole scenario is wacky, some newage "doctor" running a not-so-legal practice in his den giving folks mushrooms to come to terms with whatever emotional baggage they're carrying. I'd lose my fucking mind in a situation like that if I were in your shoes. Some things are best dealt with while keeping your ego intact.

i knew a woman who said she had a brain tumor and if she did certain things it would set off a seizure. she told me this fairly casually, it somehow had to do with her moving the coffee table in case she seized or something.

point is maybe lsd or shrooms would activate the seizure part of his brain.

They drilled in my head three times and I was awake! Details coming. 

so basically the guy last night lied to me or MAC anesthesia is nothing or I DONT KNOW because holy shit I didn't go to sleep for ANY OF IT. I remember it all. and they drilled into my head and I could hear my skull splintering fff.

and then they tell me there are two sites they want to look at and guess what, they can't get to site 2 the first time so they go for a third but then the drill doesn't quite reach for a while so I could hear it whirring about a millimiter from my skull. they used some vice to hold my head in place too.

basically what an unpleasant time. we don't know if it's cancer but I swear I heard the doctor say tumor so we find out later today and then I go home.

seriously ugh what a terrible time. and pathology was so late it made the surgery last hella long.

edit I feel okay, maybe better than the other brain surgery, and a little lightheaded from meds, but I'm okay for NY tomorrow.

That would drive me insane, I think. Just crazy thoughts! The most I've ever been awake for is getting a tooth pulled out.

I can't believe you were actually exposed to the modern day equivalent of tepanation. That is frightening.

Aaaaah, god just reading that gives me the shivers. You felt your skull splintering??? That is the worst thing ever I'd be in tears even if there was no pain.

no I heard it. like you know the dentist drill? your whole head shaking and yeah VSSSSSSSS and its YOUR HEAD. like I thought heh how cool will this be and then not only were there several head injections to numb it up but the drill is so loud. like first it's going through a tube and you think hmmm not too bad and then you hear it hit your skull and it keeps going and if you aren't thinking "if he fucking SNEEZES" you are not a normal human being.