Man, this is terrible. My uncle had the same type of testicular cancer and they said he would most likely die but he did chemotherapy, and basically, he was pretty much cured or some sort(I am not really familiar with cancers). He managed to live for at least a year after chemotherapy ended, he would probably live more than that but he died in a motorbike accident
I hope you beat this, man, I really do.

BE STRONG, STEEL PALADINE, YOU ARE THE BEST GUY EVER

jesus fuck, I can't say anything without reiterating what has already been said

just...kick cancer's ass ok

KICK IT BACK TO GOD

Guys it's OK. I have found a book that will ensure Steel's survival:

ahaha nice!

If you could make this big enough for me to use as a wallpaper (at least height-wise, the rest of the width could just be that blue color with the picture on one side), I would keep it my wallpaper until you are cancer free.

it was like two minutes in photoshop velfarre come on learn you some photoshop skills!!!

it was like two minutes in photoshop velfarre come on learn you some photoshop skills!!!

actually it's just because i can't find a big enough version of that cover art :\


i could do the rest

so basically here's the plan for the rest of the week:

tomorrow I go in at like eleven for a pulmonary test, standard thing although I honestly don't know what it entails (my friend guessed a barium map so gotta chew pills) and it won't take long ideally. on thursday I have a bone scan which unfortunately entails needles (which I pretty much hate but BETTER GET USED TO huh) and a CAT scan to see if there are more masses. apparently it's not relevant to treatment or diagnosis if there are which is good in that things can't get worse but kind of indicative as to how bad this stuff is when it doesn't matter if there's more of it. Friday I meet with the doc for any last questions before I start chemo Monday and also for bone and CAT results (ideally both clear, although now I gotta worry about BONE SCAN fuck me forgot about that).

I also talked to the doctor and he said, yeah, sometimes this shit just appears in the chest head or throat or whatever, which is why I didn't detect it in my testicles at all. chances are I'm probably fine down there since I've had no problems but who knows. I also gotta freeze some sperm THIS WEEK; chemo destroys most people's sperm counts and might make me infertile which while not really a concern atm might be provided everything is okay later.

for those of you worrying, I mean, the doctor himself was optimistic and Steve etc are hooking me up with some good contacts. don't stop worrying because lord knows I haven't but hey, it's slightly better than a straight up coin toss. also we haven't talked about maintaining/remission rates in case curing doesn't work which means I would still die (FUCK) but in some years, and idk about the feasibility or anything on that since there's nothing on wikipedia and the doctor wouldn't tell me (also said I DONTK NOW THIS ALOE VERA THING???).

fuck this is dumb shit. personally I've been dealing with this kind of unnaturally well I think (still ain't had the breakdown and cry, although I do anticipate it) and the worst thing has been this just unbelievable stress knot in my back that developed after I got the prognosis, but otherwise I feel fine.

although apparently chemo works by destroying all the cells in your body so I will have no immune system and IDK how much I can hang out with anyone irl which REALLY sucks.

and before anyone says it yes it is truly the worst thing in the world to have to consider death at such a young age and even just posting about it made me feel really horrible and Aztec go see a doctor asap.

You are a piece of shit person and I don't respect anything you do. However, cancer is a pretty terrible thing.

A coworker of mine was diagnosed with cancer a few months ago. Be prepared for the worst experience of your life, as chemo is devastating to your body. Don't use metal silverware. You will also lose a lot of weight. May need some blood transfusions as well.

Good luck.

yesssssssssssss

yesssssssssssss

seriously I was waiting eleven pages for the first person who wouldn't say WE'VE HAD OUR DIFFERENCES BUT and instead straight just be like FUCK YOU BUT GOOD LUCK, this was a good thing, I appreciate it.

so basically here's the plan for the rest of the week:

tomorrow I go in at like eleven for a pulmonary test, standard thing although I honestly don't know what it entails (my friend guessed a barium map so gotta chew pills) and it won't take long ideally. on thursday I have a bone scan which unfortunately entails needles (which I pretty much hate but BETTER GET USED TO huh) and a CAT scan to see if there are more masses. apparently it's not relevant to treatment or diagnosis if there are which is good in that things can't get worse but kind of indicative as to how bad this stuff is when it doesn't matter if there's more of it. Friday I meet with the doc for any last questions before I start chemo Monday and also for bone and CAT results (ideally both clear, although now I gotta worry about BONE SCAN fuck me forgot about that).

I also talked to the doctor and he said, yeah, sometimes this shit just appears in the chest head or throat or whatever, which is why I didn't detect it in my testicles at all. chances are I'm probably fine down there since I've had no problems but who knows. I also gotta freeze some sperm THIS WEEK; chemo destroys most people's sperm counts and might make me infertile which while not really a concern atm might be provided everything is okay later.

for those of you worrying, I mean, the doctor himself was optimistic and Steve etc are hooking me up with some good contacts. don't stop worrying because lord knows I haven't but hey, it's slightly better than a straight up coin toss. also we haven't talked about maintaining/remission rates in case curing doesn't work which means I would still die (FUCK) but in some years, and idk about the feasibility or anything on that since there's nothing on wikipedia and the doctor wouldn't tell me (also said I DONTK NOW THIS ALOE VERA THING???).

fuck this is dumb shit. personally I've been dealing with this kind of unnaturally well I think (still ain't had the breakdown and cry, although I do anticipate it) and the worst thing has been this just unbelievable stress knot in my back that developed after I got the prognosis, but otherwise I feel fine.

although apparently chemo works by destroying all the cells in your body so I will have no immune system and IDK how much I can hang out with anyone irl which REALLY sucks.

Despite the doctor not knowing about it, I will still encourage and insist on this Aloe thing because it is NOT alternative medicine... I truly have no idea if it will ease the cancer itself, but it DOES really strengthen your digestive system if nothing else, lessening the side effects.
So... Unless you are alergic or some shit, get Aloe.


Now, the chemo would make you infertile or sterile? Because it is NOT THE SAME THING.
Infertile means your sperm will be killed (Or reduced in number) but it doesn't mean your ability to produce sperm will be affected at all...

infertile, I'm afraid! that's the potential anyways.

I think you didn't understand right... Infertile is the good one (comparatively)

Basically, with a simple example... Using a laptop on your well... lap... can make you infertile; this does not mean, however, you are sterile.

meant sterile, sorry!

hey uh

chemo doesn't destroy all the cells in your body. if it did you would die LOL. it just kills all of the FAST-GROWING cells in your body (basically CANCER CELLS + HAIR)

it's good to know you have good contacts

man, i really don't have anything constructive to add to this topic other than i've suddenly become more aware of my own mortality.  my father's side has history with prostate cancer and i usually get my ass checked every year but sometimes my lymph nodes will swell for no real reason and it's kind of discomforting.

i hope i live to see the day when transhumanism becomes a reality because i'll be the first to turn myself into a cyborg or something.