goddam these sideeffects are already hittign me nooooo.

bascially mild nausea, and being really tired. I dont like that. also a sick taste in my mouth. idk this is going to be prettttty bad till saturday huh gang, and only get worse.

fuck, I'll get a pic tomorrow I guess.

What sort of things have you been exposed to/consumed that could possibly have been the cause?  Are you a smoker?  Have you been around any construction?  Sanding?  Insulation?  Have you ever been a test subject at a radioactive research facility?

I've known people who beat cancer, including my Mom.  I have the utmost faith that you will pull through.  You have my prayers.

lot of pain today. no motr type, sweell

Be strong, you have a whole team of people rooting for you

I guess you are very weak and tired today (and probably in pain). Hopefully you are sleeping a lot. Keep us updated if/when you are able to type.

yeah im behind you totally

wink.

im just really

its arough day.

so basically chemo is like


you know when you've woken up and you reallly REALLY dont want to. everything is kind of nauseous and you are really really tired. but then you're hooked up to lots of stuff so you gotta be careful and there are all these aches and sores and smells. it's just...ROUGH. like, this is the roughest time of my life. when it gets bad I dont even TYPE. not because it hurts but because you CANT MOVE THE FINGERS.

this is really rough guys. please if there are any cancer tests you can do, HPV vaccines for the women, take them. this is just UGH at best.

on the plus side, Saturday is my last day here on chemo and you'll have gross pics.

fuck this reminds me i need to get the last round of that vaccine (thanks steel!)

do not forget to eat gel (p.s. good luck pal)

holy crap that looks so fucking horrible. I spent a long time at a hospital myself and the boredom alone was a torture, while you have actual constant pain to deal with.

I hope that will soon just be a nasty memory that is definitively put behind you. Good luck!

Good luck man. I know it's not a lot and that pretty much EVERYONE is saying it, but god damn it you're a trooper.

Stay strong, bro.

Cancer doesn't have a hope in hell. Kick some ass, Steel!

Rest a lot and stay strong... shit, I feel like I want to test if I have cancer too. 

Keep it up man.

I have a story that may cheer you up.

My boyfriend was diagnosed with Melanoma when he was in his teens, he ended up going for surgery and the doctors thought they removed all of the cancerous tissue he has no visible issues.

Fast-Forward several years later and he starts to get these chronic headaches, at the time he doesn't think too much of them and lives with them for a while until they become so unbearable he knows something must be up.  He goes to the doctor and he learns the Melanoma has caused Brain Metastases (tumor).  At this point (since he waited so long) it's a giant thing that covers quite a bit of his brain and it is in such an area that surgery is not an option.  At the time they tell him that statistically speaking the median survival is 5 months WITH treatment.

So they start radiation treatment and he gets tired and feels crappy and the tumors don't seem to fading too much (for the first while he used to have the worst headaches, so bad he would pass out from the pain, seizures too and sometimes the pressure in his brain would build up so much his entire face (eyes, nose, ears EVERYTHING) would start bleeding uncontrollably).  This goes on for a few months and everyone fears the worst and then he gets started on Chemo and things really seem to go downhill but then (eventually YAY!) things start to get better and the tumors start responding better to the treatment and eventually they go away entirely.

It's now been about 1 year since the tumors went away and so far it looks pretty good.  He still has to go once every three months to the doctor to make sure everything's still the way it should be but the doctors tell him most re-occurrence happens within the first 6 months so we're pretty hopeful. 

Don't listen to Statistics, they'll just make you depressed.  All the stats were against Tim and he made it out okay.  Try to think of the things you have going for you.   Firstly, you're young and strong which is always a good thing.  Second you've got a great support group (friends and family).

Did the doctors ever tell you what Stage the cancer is?  Depending on the stage you may be better off than you think.