I'm really happy you're getting some hope and good news Steel! Keep it up! I hope everything goes well with Bosi and such.

And jeez Silhouette.... you're a tard if you believe that. If "god" really wanted the happiness of everyone that would pray in his name and such, the world would be and have been a much better place. Now please leave, thankies!

hah i'm not trying to convince steel to accept god or something. i just posted that i was glad he was feeling better and that i at least think it was god, especially after all the miracles i've been seeing in my own life lately. silhouette, leave him alone because um happy mormon future. no but really, we don't need to try and convert him or whatever. if god wants to talk to steel, he seems to be doing just fine on his own rather than through you or me or anyone else. you might wanna just let steel think about this whole prayer thing by himself.
anyways hey i think i'll post a topic about my sister for anyone who's interested because it is kinda an interesting story and there's some new updates on her too so L A T E R S

i would definitely go to law school, man. (if you're able that is!) if you guys can afford it and all it would make you focus on something that isn't CANCER and also something you would enjoy i'd imagine.

hah i'm not trying to convince steel to accept god or something. i just posted that i was glad he was feeling better and that i at least think it was god, especially after all the miracles i've been seeing in my own life lately. silhouette, leave him alone because um happy mormon future. no but really, we don't need to try and convert him or whatever. if god wants to talk to steel, he seems to be doing just fine on his own rather than through you or me or anyone else. you might wanna just let steel think about this whole prayer thing by himself.
anyways hey i think i'll post a topic about my sister for anyone who's interested because it is kinda an interesting story and there's some new updates on her too so L A T E R S

i didn't mind your story at all. it was getting links to mormon.org that really aggravated me.

if you really think about it getting relief from a conscious spiritual entity that is also slowly killing the fuck out of you is almost worse. i liken that to painting smiley faces on all the jews as they get ushered into the oven.

saying that the indifferent powers of gravity and chaos just don't give a fuck either way is a little more reassuring in this case. i don't trust an entity, spiritual or not, whose ultimate opinion is the advocacy of a happy terminal illness for a bright 23-year old. i'll take my chances with the fucking wolves. at least with the universe being a mindless set of rules you know they aren't DELIBERATELY turning your ass into a fucking sock puppet.

thats the thing. it doesn't grant serenity. it's saying YOU WILL BE OKAY. like it's just like YOU'RE GOING TO BE FINE constantly.

I don't get it! it's not a religious feeling like people describe.

maybe manichaeism is right and the devil gabe me horror...

i washoping you will end up like that communist militant that told a priest to fuck himself and fuck his church in his last breath

my aunt's dad was apparently baptized on his deathbed without his knowledge/consent so technically he died a catholic despite being a devout buddhist

that was an anecdote

yeah that's actually a thing that happens. it was in brideshead revisited which was like ancient so i can only believe it still goes on.

i dont know how to feel about it.

PROBABLY HORRIBLE but i wouldn't care i think. would you? huh.

thats the thing. it doesn't grant serenity. it's saying YOU WILL BE OKAY. like it's just like YOU'RE GOING TO BE FINE constantly.

oh so rather than the smiley face they're just telling you OH DONT WORRY WE WONT THROW YOU INTO THE OVEN as you are standing five feet from the fucking oven and the other nazis are laughing and they're wearing those fucking abyss black gloves and you can see the smile on that nazi in front of you and it looks genuine but you can already see the flames from your corpse echoing through those piercing blue eyes


i almost didn't post this as you don't need negativity but i think i am justified in being somewhat skeptical of the way the lord almighty is dicking around with you

or its more like i feel good when i pray and im confused by it as the previous is what i have always thought of spirituality as and now i have to somehow subtract the horror of god's decisions with the fact that personally something has happened to me.

i mean i'm not an idiot, that's kind of the thing. nothing you said is new to me. and yet it does not change what happened/IS HAPPENING.

like all you're doing is restating the things i knew before and it doesn't change the fact that this happened REGARDLESS and i should know better but!!!

also who are you.

god as has been established previously is a horrible fuck
yet when i prayed as an atheist something happened inside me that should not have happened

i'm far more interested in analyzing b than rehashing a, as a should preclude b (thus why i have no interest in religion)

people in prison have nowhere to turn. people who have faith turn to it. why would an atheist, someone who believes, BELIEVES, not believed

oh so rather than the smiley face they're just telling you OH DONT WORRY WE WONT THROW YOU INTO THE OVEN as you are standing five feet from the fucking oven and the other nazis are laughing and they're wearing those fucking abyss black gloves and you can see the smile on that nazi in front of you and it looks genuine but you can already see the flames from your corpse echoing through those piercing blue eyes

in this stringently still have prayer work?

its the real mystery!

as an atheist/agnostic, I call those things "invisible forces".

also known as your subconscious mind

oh i do keep mentioning this; there were some small lesions in my brain. there was no CANCER activity in them but its hard to measure that. I do have a follow up radiation appointment where if it's something to be concerned for we'll gamma knife and then who knows if this goes away ahahah richard dawkins will write a new book ALL SPIRITUAL FEELINGS: BRAIN TUMOR???

but i dont want to dismiss that either while also opening the door to anything else. i have experienced more neurological symptoms int he past months than most gw members ever will.

it's all in the mind, you know..

can you really not tell?

when they took his brain out.........they took out the parts.........that remembered me.......


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or its more like i feel good when i pray and im confused by it as the previous is what i have always thought of spirituality as and now i have to somehow subtract the horror of god's decisions with the fact that personally something has happened to me.

i mean i'm not an idiot, that's kind of the thing. nothing you said is new to me. and yet it does not change what happened/IS HAPPENING.

like all you're doing is restating the things i knew before and it doesn't change the fact that this happened REGARDLESS and i should know better but!!!

well my point was really nothing more that IF this is some act of some conscious infamous sky faggot then it probably makes them MORE DISGUSTING.

but that doesn't really matter because personally i think that you're really praying to your inner selves. idk how that shit works but it sounds like THEY'RE GETTING ON THAT so you better hope they aren't all talk and self-healing actually works. the human mind is the most interesting/complicated thing i am aware of in the galaxy so be happy that you've got one on your side. they're pretty good at things once you back them far enough into the corner