today is my cat and bone scan. wish me luck I guess even though the results are apparently really irrelevant to anything! the worst part is I can't drink or eat till it's over and now I am v. thirsty.

Good luck Sttteeeeeelllssshhh

p.s. Mog ARGH you're annoying why why why

Stop with the MOG comments. I know Steel wants you guys to entertain him and derail the topic but you've had your fun. Just let him run over to G&D and recruit some buddies and leave peacefully.

today is my cat and bone scan.

shouldn't it be dog and bone scan?

good luck man!

Good luck today man! Even if it is pretty unimportant like you said, still wish you the best of luck dude. I would say LET US KNOW HOW IT TURNS OUT but that's pretty much a given.

well, had the scans today not too long ago. bad news somewhat, it turns out my fear of needles is nothing compared to the level of actual physical nausea I apparently feel anytime an IV is in me. like, this is the first time my spirits have been down significantly and it's because I have to use IVs on chemo.

the bone scan was boring at first; it's just 20 minutes you have to lie perfectly still. however they then rescanned my head UH OH but he showed me the scan and kind of accidentally hinted that they were just checking and it doesn't look like it's in the bone. on googling, http://content.revolutionhealth.com/contentimages/h9991195.jpg I saw nothing like the fire spots here other than around my bladder and spine which I think is expected with radioactive isotopes (and it was so consistent and not asymmetrical bumps so). anyone who can find good comparison shots of bone scans though, please post so I can reassure myself YOU CAN PLAY THE GAME.

but yeah my spirits are pretty low. I really can't do IVs like this, I gotta look into getting a port inserted or sedation.

spirits low, men forced to eat horses.

you will probably get used to it though. I remember when I was in the hospital, it really sort of sickened me because of the very idea of having some connection on your arm, but as you don't really "feel" it after its been in you for a while, you will probably end up ignoring it? I always hated needles too. especially for blood related things, like on the arm there... gggh my arms felt weak just by typing that.

Anyways man I don't know what to say here. I hope the GWs are being entertaining as of late. Like with the superb things happening with youtubers. I don't remember what I did when I was in the hospital for a couple weeks a few years back, I think I just slept all day. With a laptop its prolly much better.

I used to loathe needles as a kid  and I used to be very skinny and sickly too, but then I had to undergo surgery for Tonsillitis or whatever that is called, and something got messed up(hormonically) and then I started gaining weight(very VERY fast). Until then I probably did like, what, three or four blood tests a month for three or four years. It's not that big a deal anymore, although I really try not to get close to needles-wait it's actually more like DOCTORS WITH NEEDLES, you know, the kind that is all like "IT'S OKAY, STAY STILL, YOU ARE A BIG BOY, IT'S NOT GONNA HURT YA" I mean, a doctor once said that to my dad. Holy fucking shit, this post is irrelevant.

he can't see it boi he ain't got premium

lets just say it isn't legal in Carolina and steel wants to use his cancer as a sob story to make it so, even though he won't smoke it.

he's not a premium, dude!

maybe this will encourage him to get premium instead of being el cheapo

yeah I figured if I've got the advantage of a sob story maybe I should use it! who knows how that will pan out.

anyways it's not the uh NEEDLE part, its the fact that it stays in. like, I have a serious physical and emotional reaction to this stuff, I really don't know what to do!

yeah I figured if I've got the advantage of a sob story maybe I should use it! who knows how that will pan out.

anyways it's not the uh NEEDLE part, its the fact that it stays in. like, I have a serious physical and emotional reaction to this stuff, I really don't know what to do!

just try to look at it and I am pretty sure that it will probably come to you that it is not such a big deal after all!

that didn't help when I tried it today and I ended up retching incredibly hard.

this would have been bad seeing as how I just swallowed a bottle of coloring agent and needed to swallow another but got lucky!

an edit update: my IV scar already irritates me (not like ACTUALLY but just EWWWW ITS KIND OF GROSS) and tomorrow we see the doc for scan results and also I'm getting some more needling I think for sperm freezing.

if there's a needle going in my dick I'm going sterile fuck it.

I don't get why you can't just jerk off into a cup

or just jerk off into 30 cups incase the first one won't take