there is something called an edit button btw


also, you seem like a smarter doktormartini

but still sound like doktormartini........

Fuck, I don't mean to sound crude, but have they considered amputatation or is the tumor too big still?  My grandma had thyroid surgery because of abnormal cells.

Have doctors be honest/up-to-date with you whats going on; that way you can choose your best course of treatment (it is your body) with objective knowledge?

well we went to chemo first because the tumor is kind of in a bad area, near the lungs. plus, this type of tumor responds really well (ie: dies) from chemo alone a lot, and surgeries are always kind of riskier than chemo so.

yesterday's chemo was probably the worst yet. I slept so badly the night before because I kept feeling the tumor (the fucker was dancing), and then I took my atavan/valium when I woke up but they moved the chemo time to like 1 so by the time I got there it had kind of wore off. then the nurse couldn't get the portocath to function for a bit and she kept sucking at it with the needle and the sound nearly made me black out because it was so gross to listen to and that old urban legend about AIR IN THE VEINS came back and yeah I started feeling faint. luckily she got it working, but I was also nauseous all day until they put in the anti-emetics, at which point my mom got lunch but my sister ate all the waffle fries.

later in the day was good though, and I feel better today. we confirmed the CT scan about two weeks from now and we're also skipping that blood cell injection because my current blood levels are high so hopefully no bone days in the future, at least for a bit.

and I'm off to the hospital. for some reason, I got a fucking fever of 102.7, and hopefully it's nothing, but they want to check.

I'll update if they admit me or I not.

So minus this fever, things have been going good?  It's nice to hear that the tumor is responding/dying/fucking off from the chemo.

yeah it's been uh...SHITTY but not like BEDRIDDEN KNEE DAY. I've had pains in my shoulder that hydrocodone took care of, and then there's this fever which feels like, you know, a fever.

like if I had say OVERALL HOW HAVE YOU BEEN FEELING I'd say 7. there was one day that was like perfect, but then the next day whooooosh shoulder pain shit.

honestly if this topic isn't updating you can assume two things.

1. things are really good
2. things are really bad.

and obviously 2 is applicable when I'm not posting anywhere else because I am crying downstairs or something.

right now I'm kind of pissed off, I really hope they don't admit me but now I'm kind of scared because it sounds like they will!

fevers are a scary sideeffect, but as I clearly said earlier, my blood count WAS high on tuesday, hopefully this is just a passing thing.

yeah, you can get a fever from pretty much anything, so hopefuly it's nothing serious

p.s. i am making appointments to see a doctor this week for annual checkup but also to get some blood work done and whatnot. Also, I've been having back pain issues for the past year or two and it's getting worse so I'm going to get that checked up too.

p.p.s. i think i will also mention to the doctor that one time i lost my vision for 5 minutes

here's ya cancer *reads horoscope*

nooooo

so i got mild pneumonia and then they checked my blood count, which went from 8000 to a whopping 300 so I'm in the hospital for some time, until this fever passes.

seems ill be in till monday.

I just read your summary on page 28 and it's really nice of you sharing your experience with us.  You're a strong man. I don't think there's anything I can do but wishing you luck...  Don't lose hope, ok? :')

NOW IM IN THE ICU!!!!!!

this does not sound good at all =|;^(

i am rooting for you pal (ie. your body will punch / kick all ails)

yikes! fuck your tumopr

steel you qualify for a free copy of re-mission. you should probably take it.

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