the religious among you are throwing up your hands and saying IT'S GOD STUPID but this only raises more questions. does God only let people suffer as I have before taking it away? why did the prayers of no one else work, at granting serenity or if you believe in miracles, cure? doesn't that lend more creedence to the individual neurological reaction hypothesis (after all if it requires ME to pray it's in my head)?
and then the skeptical among you, you know if this was the opposite we'd be rolling our eyes. like we all know people who prayed and felt nothing; if you are an atheist I'm sure you've tried. but when it happens, being dismissive is just as insulting. we're SKEPTICAL, not religious, and as skeptics that means when something like this happens (a genuine spiritual reaction from me, someone so devotedly anti-spiritual you can probably find a dozen posts about FUCK GOD in the past year), we should think about why rather than say RELIGION WILL HURT YOU.
Yes, I believe in God. Yes, I'm even RELIGIOUS. So automatically people might discount whatever I say. But I know that God has a vested interest in everyone's happiness, because that is the purpose and end of our creation--to be happy.
He's not going to let you suffer alone when you're asking him for help with real intent of heart. He's going to do the thing that's best for you, for your growth in the eternal perspective. Whether it's to call you home, or to prolong your life so that you can fulfill your purpose here on the earth, he's going to make sure it happens.The trick is in realizing what it is that God wants, what's best for you, and to try to align your desires with his. And that's true happiness. The prayers of others are always good, but it's *your* prayers that he wants to hear. Just like any mortal father would want to hear of his son, not just indirectly from others, but straight from the source.
Again, this is what I know to be true. You may take it as you like it, or further ask any questions if you desire. And I still wish the best of luck for you, and pray in your behalf.
