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FUCK YEAH! I LOVE YOU STEEL! :)
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Jesus, that was monstrous. Thank you Steve, for posting that, seriously. My heart was pounding the entire time I read that.

Has his mom seen it?
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That, thats exactly what I wanted from him. I'm so thankful you found it steve, thank you so much.

I think that letter right there, sums up all of his great personality traits and character. Thats what I looked up to in him and thats what I felt when reading what he had to say.

He'll never know how much he inspired me, all over. To be a better person, to actually listen to music and not hear it, to learn and to think. And I'm so grateful for that, best gift I've ever gotten from anyone in my entire life.
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Steve. Thank you.
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I sent it over to his mom tonight, along with a link to this thread.  I'm really glad that that letter inspired you guys too, and if I find anything else, I'll be sure to post it...  heh, it's hard to find words which make any of this make any sense, but leave it to Mark to find some for us.  I love you too, man.
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oh my god, that was the most beautiful thing I have ever read. I don't think anybody will ever have as much of an impact on my life as this man has.
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I'll miss that guy. :(
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The last paragraph really got me. (I was listening to the instrumental version of the main theme from the indian movie "Kal ho na ho" at the time I was reading this and the combination of music and steels words hit me. hard.)

Thank you steve for bringing closure to us.
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I miss him so fucking much, thanks for posting that here. It's been really hard to care about anything else the last couple weeks maybe this will help
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i really needed that, thank you
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Thank you! I can't stress how incredibly thankful I am for this. Thank you, Steve!
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this is absolutely amazing. at the same time, i am not surprised he was capable or writing something like that. this is him at the pinnacle. unfortunately he wasn't here long enough and was essentially robbed of what most of us assume is owed to us. steel is always going to stick in my head.
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Wow I'm stunned that you where able to find something. Thanks Steve. My dad died when I was 13 and I feel like I knew what he was going thru. He is the same age as me too. But only thing I can relate to him is the pain of a loved one dieing in front of you. I can honestly say I never fell in love and I only did one thing in my life that I regretted. but the pain aspect I can extremely relate to him. He had more resone to live then I and I wish I could of helped him. As he was a brilliant young man. RIP STEEL
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Thanks so much for sharing this. I really miss that guy. In either this or the other topic someone posted all of his YouTube videos but I just can't watch them. It's literally too hard. But reading this does ease my mind somewhat. He may have written he wasn't ready to die yet, but he was happy with his life so far and didn't have any regrets.

It's strange. Even posthumously that guy is an inspiration to me.
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Thank you for sharing that with us, Steve. Absolutely beautiful. He's in a better place now, no doubt. I hope I get to meet him someday.
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That was insane. i wish i had joined gamingworld earlier to at least KNOW HIM.

Damn. what a guy.
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thanks that made my day :)
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The last paragraph really got me. (I was listening to the instrumental version of the main theme from the indian movie "Kal ho na ho" at the time I was reading this and the combination of music and steels words hit me. hard.)

jesus this is like the saddest song ever
I love this hobby - stealing your mother's diary
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Before I learned of Steel's death, I had a posting hiatus on the forum but I would always make time in the day to come and read over events and popular topics in the community. Ever since this "okay" topic was created, I tried to inform myself on his current state of health because I realize how gruesome of a disease that cancer can be. Steel had his ups and downs, but it was always ensuring to read the topic and learn of any positive news regarding his struggle with cancer. When I came into the topic and read the news of his death, I was very appalled. It's not as if no one could foresee his death given the circumstances, but there's always that feeling of disbelief when someone that you know has disappeared. I never really conversed with Steel, but anyone who read his posts knew how knowledgable, intelligent, and level-headed of a person he actually was. I definitely did and continue to admire him for his qualities that made him into such a person.

I especially want to thank you for sharing that message and comment on it while I am at it. Reading over it, my mind hearkens back to many of the posts that he made which really make you think "This individual knows what they're talking about." and i'd always close the topic changed a little bit, because I was able to learn something from him. Not only was that message thought provoking, it was also an emotional read. I read the central message that was delivered and I scrutinize how I am living my own life in accordance to how I should be. How much am I taking for granted? Should I appreciate the people in my life and what I have been given? Aside from the fact that it causes me to revaluate my own life, it's even more emotional when you consider that Steel is the one who wrote it. He was hardly one to show his emotional side. I always had the impression that he was a bit different than the person that he claimed we should all aspire to be. I suppose that's a large part of what inspired him to write it for everyone to read. Although he may have angered a lot of people, came off as a provocateur, and in general came off as indifferent to any negativity he may have sparked among others, his message goes to show that deeper down he really was a kind-at-heart person who legitimately cared about those around him - though his way of showing it was just different.