Hey dude, I don't really know you, and I don't really know what to say right now. I am not very religious, but dude, I'll be sending a prayer your way. We all, your friends, family, us at GW, want this to work out. Everyone as humans have a fear of dying, at least at some point in their life. I don't know in what 'form' of fear that may be, but in your case, well you know. I'm in no position to say I know what you're going through, because that would be a lie. Look I don't know where I am going with this, but just don't give up on shit, you know what I mean? Just keep at it, just remember how many people care for you, and that life is worth living. You knew this already, just stay strong, you'll have a prayer from me.