in a hilariously gw emotional release I was playing dead space when i got th enews and shot a zombie twenty times in rage it was very television gameresque.

apparently their procedure is to always schedule an appointment in these cases, but because there were no docs in when I went in for the retest, they didn't schedule it then.

I'm still scared though, as why the fuck is it elevated (some tumor markers, like those for breast cancer, are sensitive to external factors but I don't know if testicular cancer is), but man why do the retest now and ruin my holidays and then schedule and scare the fuck out of me.

im doomed doomed man walking.

I hope everything is ok and doctors are just dumb!!!!!

G'luck...

man this sucks ass dude...i really hope all that shit comes back okay

AOFIHAIOUSFHIOJUNFIAUSH.

All of my best thoughts and wishes are with you, dude. I know that sounds really trite but I haven't got a clue what else to type.

gahrrk I dont know what the hell to say

Dont have cancer again steel

I don't even know when I find out.

what's puzzling me, and my one hope, is I was just in the hospital, they did a full chest CT scan, and no one mentioned a tumor. don't know why that would happen, considering they were looking for anything that would cause chest pains.

maybe its some wisecracking sarcastic doc thats just playin'

this is absolute bullshit. is this shit standard procedure, how they are handling these test results? it seems unprofessional as hell. if this is really back, i cannot imagine the amount of BAD LUCK you must be feeling because of all of this, in addition to everything else.

this is absolute bullshit. is this shit standard procedure, how they are handling these test results? it seems unprofessional as hell. if this is really back, i cannot imagine the amount of BAD LUCK you must be feeling because of all of this, in addition to everything else.

it must have been a miscommunication or something and they thought the order to bring me in for bad results was a retest. I blame the break more than the nurses or doctors because they know me and know I would only be upset about the retest not just a procedural thing. but the break had most of them incommunicado with each other.

aawe

it must be such a scary feeling. you must be living in constant fear. are you able to at least take your mind off of it from time to time?

reading through all of this makes me so sad. you are way too young to be going through this shit! i don't even know you, but i just wanna give you a big hug ​  (that is probably even more wierd of a thing to say based on the type of person you seem to be). anyways. good luck with the retest.

man, i felt so horrible when this popped into my head and i was about to suppress it forever, but then i remembered that story you told about your friends being horrified at how you were telling cancer jokes and you didn't think there was anything wrong with humor at a time like this................ well....


at least you........ you lived to see GW6 released

the cancer came back. scans are tomorrow to find out where. either way, chemo starts up again very soon. may go to Indiana for treatment.

Man FUCK THAT. God damn it.

god fucking dammit ugh

Sorry to hear about it.

man, what a load of shit. are you going to go through more intense chemo this time or what?