as someone who really didn't like steel very much i feel i need to say i believed he really would beat the cancer and i'm genuinely saddened that he didn't
the dude really was the heart of GW and i think GW has the reputation it does because of him. there are other pivotal people here like bart and whoever but steel really was the guy that you think of when you think GW.

this site should be shut down

I never really knew Steel.  I think the only time that I ever talked to him here was in a topic I made once and the extent of the conversation was something shallow and that's it.  But I've been around here for a while -- I've seen a lot of the thing he posted, and like someone in the 90 pages of this thread said, he was fucking brilliant.  Funny.  Clever.  The guy had a lot going for him.  To be honest, I've always thought of him as something of a celebrity.  And deep down, somewhere, I've always wanted to talk to him, and try and prove myself to him, or just listen to what he had to say. 

But christ.  I barely knew the guy, and it still fucken feels weird; empty.  I hope that his family and friends are going to be okay, and I wish them the best. 

RIP Steel, I always thought you were a pretty cool guy.

Well put it this way. I had to gather my thoughts to even attempt to argue with Steel. And when I felt I won I felt good. I can not say that about any other member here. I did not think I would be posting here anytime soon but I guess this is a good reason for sure.

Rest in peace young nigga, there's a Heaven for a 'G'. ~2pac

Fuuuuck fuck fuck fuck. I don't post on GW very often at all, but I lurk a fair bit. I read Steel's articles and always enjoyed his posts. I honestly don't know what to say, this has been on my mind all day now. He was so clever and always knew his shit and I genuinely admired him. I only actually spoke to him like once or twice, in fairly unexciting topics. All I ever really did were READ THE GUY'S POSTS and he still made me want to try to be a better person than dirty rpgmaker nerd #12823, as someone said earlier. Aaaaargh, this is really shit. RIP Steel. : (

 I've never talked to steel before, but I lurked quite a bit and read a lot of his post's. I do'nt know what to say... Rest in peace Steel

RIP Steel, sorry it took me so long to post in this thread.. I've looked through here a couple times and it just makes me feel sad that we wont be hearing from you anymore.

It just feels so...sudden. I mean he was pretty ok from the last time we heard of him. I mean, I don't even know what to say.

I never spoke to him, but his posts were pretty awesome. I loved his stories, and I loved reading him argue. I never really exchanged a word with him (besides one time I think I said something stupid and he corrected me). I always admired him as a person, and he's honestly the kind of guy I'd aim to be. Lively, intelligent, charismatic, funny. I mean, its weird that I can even react to this in this way, but just reading srendi's post just left me confused.

It just seems so surreal. It doesn't feel right at all. I know you guys are probably like "who the fuck r u whoa" but even though it is weird, it sort of put me in a bad mood yesterday when I found out. And I couldn't stop thinking about it. It's just not fair.

I mean, we got through this whole thread and it honestly kept going like "Cancer's back, but steel defeats it!". I honestly never thought he'd end up losing to it. It just seemed like that cool, exuberant guy from the internet would be able to best it. And like, this thread sort of brought more up. Like he had a future planned out. He wanted to go to law school after kicking cancer's ass.

And god, I just feel pretty horrid for his mom too. I mean, her husband died of cancer, and the whole time it affected her throughout steel's sickness. I mean, for him to end up losing to this must be fucking devastating. I can't even imagine the pain she feels right now.


I know this post isn't very helpful. And everyone's trying to remember the good stuff and whatnot, but I just can't really get over it for some reason. It's bothering me. It's not right. I know this is how the world works...I've known it forever. People get what they get, whether they deserve it or not. But even now, it just doesn't make sense.  I guess it never really does.

Well, my heartfelt feelings go out to everyone who reads this thread. I only wish I could have actually gotten to know him really, because he sounds like he was a great role model. To me he was one of the reasons I kept coming back all these years.

Welp. Got nothing else to say for now.

I still can't think of anything intelligent to say, but goddamn, I can't even fathom what his family is going through.

I really, really, really thought he was going to beat it, and the whole thing would become an anecdote that he'd use as a source of inner strength and motivation. "I kicked cancer's ass, there's nothing that can stop me," or something like that. That was probably just wishful thinking on my part.

Worse yet, he was someone who was actually gonna do something with his life. No one should have to go through cancer, especially not someone as young as him, but the fact that he was trying to make a difference in the world makes the whole thing that much more infuriating.  I mean hell, look at this topic. Look at all the shit he went through. It isn't right.